Xiao Xiao moved the coffee in front of the man away.

Push another cup in front of the man.

“Chocolate milk tea.”

Xiao Xiao smiled.

...

The man was stunned for a while.

Then, he reached out.

He only discovered.

My fingers were shaking slightly.

He held his five fingers tightly.

...

The rich aroma of chocolate milk tea comes to your nose.

The sweet smell seemed to have even become softer.

His hands slowly held the enamel cup.

Carefully, slowly, he raised his cup.

......

Mellow chocolate milk tea slips into the throat.

The slight heat dispelled the coldness of his limbs.

His expression also softened a little.

"……Thanks."

It was not until this time that he realized that it was really great that he was willing to talk to.

...

"Later I got older, and I finally understood..."

The man smiled bitterly.

His fingers rubbed the wall of the cup and looked down at his face reflected in the chocolate milk tea.

In a trance, he seemed to have seen the pale and tender face more than 20 years ago.

The child's unique dark eyes are not as tempting as a slight agility.

He could no longer remember what these eyes looked like.

In his impression, these eyes were always so... dark, empty and full of fear.

Even now, there has not been much change.

"So they can't see it..."

...

The man let out a long sigh.

"How stupid I am..."

"After so long..."

"I only realized after suffering so much..."

"If I had found out earlier..."

Everything will change.

Mom and dad are still the same as they were.

He won't take a break from school.

He will not be rejected by others and become a lonely person.

He wouldn't be so scared of the hospital.

His past... has no memory that cannot be looked back on.

Everything will look good.

At least it won't be worse than he is now.

...

"When I finally realized what the problem was..."

The man opened his mouth and gasped for a few breaths, "Do you know?"

"Those terrible experiences...the coldness of my parents...the alienation of my classmates and friends...they are always alone...all of these...that knocked me down."

"Although it's just a little bit..."

“But when I realized I could have avoided it all…”

"As long as I pretended not to see it...as long as I acted normally..."

"It's very simple, isn't it?"

The blue veins on the back of the man's hands were crisscrossed, just like his entangled and bored heart at this moment.

"It's such a simple thing, I haven't noticed it, I haven't done it..."

The man's chest was undulating violently, and he was even more panting.

"At that time..."

The man tightened the clothes on his chest, "My regret... I almost knocked me down."

...

“Hu~Hu~”

The man supported his forehead with the back of his hands.

My whole body was shaking.

"I……"

"I want to beat myself up."

“I hope time goes back…”

"I……"

The corners of the man's eyes were burning.

The eyes became blurred.

...

"It wasn't too late to find out later."

Xiao Xiao's voice was gentle.

The aroma of coffee and chocolate milk tea is more relaxing.

...

"……No."

The man's voice was hoarse, and he felt a little more swallowed.

"It's too late."

"Even...I realized later what the problem was..."

"But it's too late..."

"I've been abnormal for too long..."

"Even though I seemed to have returned to normal later, no one knows if I will relapse..."

"and……"

"Not only them, they are used to treating me as a mentally abnormal person..."

"I don't know how to get along with them normally."

"No."

"How did you restore the relationship to the beginning."

"Even if I return to normal..."

He was still as silent and taciturn as ever.

There is no difference from before.
To be continued...