Xu Shu was confused about his words. Zhuang Li asked, but Xu Shu was speechless. Zhuang Li had no choice but to send Xu Shu back. He was worried about Xu Shu, but he couldn't pry Xu Shu's mouth open and turned to find Zhou Jin. However, Zhou Jin suddenly disappeared. Zhuang Li suddenly felt something was wrong. He even monitored the Fu family for several days but found no useful information. He also got new instructions and had to give up.

After the Song family was settled, Xu Shu finally felt relieved. She returned to the Xu family and locked her in the house alone. She mixed the medicine given by Zhou Jin into the spices that the Winter Solstice was prepared to be sent to the palace. After the incense was prepared, she put it in boxes in person, which was not in the hands of others.

After Xu Shu came back, she no longer mentioned the matters related to the Song family. Taxue vaguely speculated and mustered up the courage to ask Xu Shu. Xu Shu did not hide it and admitted directly, "It was indeed for the Song family's business, but this is the last time. I will never look for Zhuang Li again!"

It turns out that person is called Zhuang Li!

Taxue murmured, "Why is it the last time..."

"No reason, I won't use him anymore!" Xu Shu nodded halfway, her neck bent slightly, and half of her face was hidden in the shadow of the backlight, and the expression on her face was unreal.

Seeing this, Taxue stopped asking more questions. Suddenly, he remembered something and said, "Miss, when you went out, the Gao family sent a post. Miss Gao asked you to go to Shuiyan Pavilion to have a vegetarian vegetarian tomorrow!"

Xu Shu's expression finally brought a little joy, "Okay, I'll reply to her!"

I replied to Gao Zhinan and started preparing what I would like to use when I went out tomorrow. In this way, I finally finished my whole day.

As soon as it was dark, Xu Shu immediately lay on the bed. Today, she felt particularly tired, so tired that she didn't even have the strength to say a word, but she was lying on the bed without any sleepiness. Miscellaneous thoughts and thoughts ran around in her mind, stopping her from the thought of falling asleep.

"Is this my life?" Xu Shu murmured in a low voice, "I have never believed in life and never accepted my life, right? What can fate do to me? If it could do to me, I would have died long ago... But why is life so tired, every day I am tired..."

"Forget it, I'm all asking for it..." Xu Shu smiled coldly, "What's wrong with being a blind man? If you have to go out, it's easy to stretch your head, and it's difficult to shrink your head. Maybe you can't be that quiet little blind man again..."

It was still dark before her when she moved her hands. More than seven years have passed. She is almost forgetting what this world looks like... I wonder if there is still a chance to take a look at this world again...

"Why are you so cruel to me, but you end up blindly after escaping from death? What did I do wrong..."

Two lines of clear tears rolled down, Xu Shu lay on the bed and hugged herself tightly. Through the thin fabric, the traces of the burning fire on her back left a sudden and strange touch on her fingertips. The only thing she was glad that the fire did not hurt her face, and she could still pretend to be a normal person...

After so many years, Xu Shu still clearly remembers all the details before and after the fire. Her mother's satisfied smile, her brother's loud crying, her aunt's faces with different expressions, and her father's magnificent figure. Everything is so clear that she can't forget even if she wants to.

As a third child with sisters on top and younger brothers on the front and back without a shop, Xu Shu was not favored when she was a child. When she was just born, she was a girl. Wang was not very happy to see that she didn't even take three baths. Li still had Xu Ting in the house at that time, so Xu Shu was handed over to the wet nurse in a few days.

Not long after, Li became pregnant with Xu Sheng again, and he didn't care about Xu Shu. When Xu Shu was learning to speak, the wet nurse and the girl were by her side. When Xu Shu was learning to walk, the wet nurse and the girl were by her side. It was difficult to see Li. Except for the time you can see him when you pay me a favor every morning and evening, you can basically not see Li at the rest.

Xu Shu worked hard and finally could go to Chunhuiyuan with two short legs, but she still had no chance to be with her mother. Li held Xu Ting with his left hand and hugged Xu Sheng with his right hand. There was no place for her. Xu Shu could only sit on a small stool alone and watched her feed her sister and tie her braids. Occasionally, her mother would raise her head and smile at her gently. That moment was the happiest time for Xu Shu.

Later, the mother finally gave birth to a younger brother for her. Xu Shu knew that her mother had always wanted to give birth to a younger brother, and her wish was finally fulfilled. The mother must be very happy. She would be happy if her mother was happy... As long as she was happy, she would be willing to do anything.

But the sister and sister were unhappy. The little Xu Shu didn't understand why such a thing that the whole family was happy about was unhappy. Later, she finally understood, but it was too late...

The fire took away not only her eyes, but also the belief that supported her young age through her lonely childhood...

Xu Shu held her arms, her fingers were about to sink into her flesh, her shoulders thrust, crying silently and sadly.

She hadn't cried like this for a long time. Because of her discomfort in her eyes and she could not cry over the years, Xu Shu even cried less, but once she started crying, she could no longer be able to hold back. Thinking about everything she had experienced in just over ten years, she couldn't help feeling uncomfortable. She was still a child.

But some people never regard her as a child, especially when she needs to do her work...

A blind man, a useless blind man, even though he saved the only legitimate son of the eldest son, she was still a blind man, a blind man with no use. The rolling eyes and cold reception were often suffered by Xu Shu when she was blind just now. The alienation from her relatives made the young Xu Shu experience the warmth and warmth of human feelings too early and grow up quickly.

She lost in the fire and has to get it back!

Fortunately, she was smart and hardworking enough. With ten times and a hundred times higher than ordinary people, she finally became a useful blind man, a blind man who was gradually unable to leave the Xu family.

But a blind man is always a blind man. In the eyes of her relatives she cares about, she is always just a blind man. No matter how much she does, she will not get any extra respect and love from them. Even if it is a sister of a mother, she will not treat you as a sister. In the eyes of others, she will never consider her value of use. This is true for her relatives, and so for strangers...

With the coldness of human feelings so much, Xu Shu finally understood completely and her heart was also cold...

The eyes filled with tears were burning with pain, and the whole body was shaking when they closed their eyes and opened them. Xu Shu trembled with her hands and wiped away the tears in her eyes. After a while, she finally calmed down and slowly lay down, crossed her hands in front of her chest. There was a small porcelain bottle there before. The porcelain bottle might one day send her into an abyss that would never be restored, but that day was too far away, so far that she didn't want to think about it...
Chapter completed!