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On December 10, 2005, more than a month has passed since his father's death. What he has experienced in this month has made Zhang Jun feel physically and mentally exhausted. Now playing football makes him feel bored. Under the torture of various events, he gradually loses his interest in football.

In the past, it was a small place, and no matter how much attention it received, it would not be one-fifth of the one in Milan. The town was small, and everyone looked up and saw each other. They were very familiar with each other, and Zhang Jun never felt any pressure from the residents. Playing football happily, this ideal, at least he had been with Warrendam for three years.

But with this summer, when he came to AC Milan, everything was different. AC Milan is a world-leading giant, with countless journalists and fans looking at it every day. Which of the people playing football here is not the focus of everyone?

Zhang Jun had never seriously considered the relationship between attention and pressure before, but now when he discovered it, he could no longer bear it.

To be honest, with Zhang Jun's personality, he is not actually a person who can easily adapt to this huge pressure. He is not Yang Pan. Then it is normal to have one or another problem.

The problem is that people don’t know how Zhang Jun feels. In China, he has a huge fan base, and his name is mentioned almost every day in sports media. With the great success of the Netherlands and the joining of the world’s giant AC Milan, these things have caused a lot of sensational influence with the help of the media. They have gradually shaped Zhang Jun, the boy next door, into a statue of a god. Three years ago, when Chinese football was in the darkest years, Zhang Jun was born, and then in the following time, he used his beautiful goals to let them see some hope and expect something when people were disappointed.

People have become accustomed to such a Zhang Jun. Zhang Jun, who is majestic on the court, always smiles and is happy. When Zhang Jun changed his image and appeared in front of them with a feeling of almost down and out, no one could accept it.

They either scold Ancelotti for being incompetent or scolded Zhang Jun as an absolute coward. But no one can put himself in his shoes and think about it. When a young man who is only twenty-four years old suddenly loses his father, he suffers a series of career blows. Can he really "turn grief into strength" as everyone expects?

Just after hearing the news of Zhang Jun's father's death, except for symbolic expression of grief at the beginning, almost everyone was looking forward to the appearance of a comic-style hero in the movie. He turned grief into strength, vented all the pain on his poor opponent, and raised his hands to accept their long-term cheers.

But I'm sorry, Zhang Jun let them down, or they were expecting too much.

They want heroes, but Zhang Jun never wants to be a hero, or he doesn't realize it at all. For him, playing football is his job and his hobby, it's that simple.

On the one hand, there is huge expectations, but on the other hand, there is a somewhat lazy personality. It is conceivable that the conflict between the two will be conceivable. This will form a vicious cycle, and continuing will only lead to both losses.

Zhang Jun is trying to ease this conflict, and his cold attitude towards the media also has a little bit of this meaning. But this can only arouse the dissatisfaction of the media and eventually make some people seize the opportunity to make a big fuss.

Regarding the "beating incident", the court's first-instance judgment has been concluded. Zhang Jun was sentenced to lose the case and he had to make a formal apology in the media and compensate the other party for various economic losses. Zhang Jun had asked Huafang to help him appeal, and he wanted to continue the lawsuit until he could no longer appeal. He didn't care about the money, he was trying to make an excuse.

Zhang Jun has been in poor condition in the past month, and I have to say that it has something to do with this matter.

A month later, the scandal incident gradually faded out of people's sight. Except for the few parties involved, they felt angry and embarrassed, no one would talk a few more, and new events have been talked about. The one who made the most profit in this "scandal" was not the newspaper that first disclosed the matter, but the Italian Sky TV. Because the heroine in the "scandal" worked here, the ratings of several programs hosted by Ilaria hit a new high during this period, and even increased the advertising fees.

Alexander Krianson made a lot of money, but no one paid attention to Zhang Jun's losses.

In confusion and helplessness, Zhang Jun watched as his once beautiful longing became what he is now. Since his father passed away, things have become uncontrollable. He wanted to do something to restore the current situation, but what can he do now?

I can't go to the game, and I have a bad relationship with others in the team. The coach has not liked him from the beginning. Countless media he has rejected are watching him joke... Zhang Jun doesn't know what else he can do when he stays here.

Even when he was seriously injured, he was not as miserable as he is now. At least he still had a love for football at that time. What about now?

Countless people say that when a hobby becomes a kind of work, you will find that it is actually not loveable at all. You will feel bored and painful. You will find that things that have brought you countless happiness in the past will one day give you a steady stream of trouble and trouble.

Now Zhang Jun deeply understands the truth of this sentence.

I'm training and playing football every day. Are I aesthetically tired?

There are another fifteen days to be Christmas. Zhang Jun thought it might be a good idea to take a vacation for himself, so he would relax while he was on the holiday. When he returned to the team again, he believed that his condition should be back.

Just as he was thinking this way, he received a call from Baggio.

"Robi? At this time of previous years, shouldn't you be hunting in Argentina?"

"I'm surprised, right? Hehe. I want to have Christmas in Italy this year." Baggio said with a smile.

"I haven't heard from you for a long time. Are you okay?" Zhang Jun was very happy that he was able to receive a call from Baggio, so he threw all the unhappiness just behind him.

"I'm fine. But you seem to have encountered some trouble recently, right?"

Zhang Jun was silent for a moment: "Even you know? There is indeed some small trouble, but I can handle it. I think maybe I am too tired. Fortunately, Christmas is coming soon, and there will be no problem after a holiday..."

"No, listen to me, Zhang. This is not your problem." Baggio interrupted Zhang Jun.

"this……"

"I know all those things and I know very well. I have many friends in the football circle. Regarding the penalty kick in the Milan Derby, I can't say who is right and who is wrong in the club. You all have your own reasons. This is understandable. I just want to ask you one thing, Zhang, have you ever regretted your original choice for the kick and the situation you are in now?" Baggio asked very seriously on the phone.

"No regrets. I think... I never regretted the choice at that time, even if I lost the main position because of this." Zhang Jun said firmly.

"Um, Zhang. Do you remember what I said to you after you were rejected when you first came to Milan?"

"What... words?" Zhang Jun searched hard in his mind, but still couldn't remember what Baggio had said to him.

"If you can't go to AC Milan, go to Florence. I think Florence, which is still in Class II, may be more suitable for you." Baggio said to him, repeating the words two years ago.

"Go...Florence?" Zhang Jun was stunned. He had never thought about this problem.
Chapter completed!