PS1: Oh, for various reasons, there is only one chapter today, so try to write more tomorrow. Even with these contents, I have thought about it for a lot of time, and there must be enough preparation before the plot develops...

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Chihiro sat on the roof with his knees in his arms, looking at the moonlight. Tonight was a good weather to watch the moon.

He seemed to like sitting with his knees like this, as if he was holding himself. Even if he didn't know any memories of the past, his origin, his purpose, and his meaning, but if he stretched out his arms and hugged his knees, he could feel a little warmth and repel the warmth of loneliness when he wrapped himself in his arms.

Yes, although the memory is still broken, I can vaguely recall that I seem to have been lonely for a long time, and I can only use the method of hugging myself to send coldness and loneliness, hug... a hint of warmth like an illusion.

I should be very happy that I can sleep in my brother's room, crouch in the corner, hug myself, bury my head in my knees and fall asleep quietly. Even if I suddenly wake up and prick up my ears, I can hear my brother not far away sleeping slightly... For some reason, when I hear that sound, I can quickly fall asleep again and sleep peacefully until dawn.

That feeling should be very beautiful. No matter when, you can feel the fact that an important person is by your side. No matter when and where, no matter what you are doing, you don’t worry about being lonely.

"Who am I...?" Qianxun looked at his hand with clear patterns and crystal clear as jade. His father said that this was the natural hand of a warrior, but he had no real sense, but he couldn't help but become interested in martial arts, pursuing becoming stronger, as if he was instinctively hating his weakness. This is... why?

A gentle footsteps came from his ears. He turned his head and looked, and the Dragon God Kill jumped to the roof with his hands and feet: "Yo."

He threw a bottle of milk, and Chihiro reached out to catch it.

"Ahh, what a beautiful moonlight." Jian came to him and stood looking at the moon in the sky.

Perhaps because of the blessing of the bright moon, Qianxun did not look at each other with his vicious tongue. He looked quietly at the night sky and suddenly said, "Brother, will he get married?"

"Of course, men always have to start a family and start a career." Jian shrugged, "It's just a matter of time or later. What I have to worry about now is not whether the eldest brother wants to get married, but how many people should marry..."

Chihiro looked at Jian: "Don't you feel angry? Don't you feel depressed?"

"Why?" Orangutan Jian glanced at Chihiro strangely, "I will only be happy that my brother can get married."

"Aren't you the brother-in-chief mentioned in the book?" Qianxun said lightly.

"...What strange books are you reading! Those boring knowledge are fine without understanding it!" Jian was almost choked and complained loudly, "I'm not a brother! I'm a man! Man!"

He defended a few words loudly, then touched his head and whispered: "Ah, if you don't feel anything at all, it must be fake. After all, the eldest brother who grew up together is going to get married, start a family with others, get married, have children, and have a wife and children have become the most important existence in life. My parents and I can only retreat to the second seat. This feeling is not very good..."

He smiled embarrassedly, and then defended loudly: "So this is pure brotherly and sisterly love! I hate those guys the most. I have too much interpreted the pure family affection and think of the disgusting aspects. Let's purify your dirty souls!"

"But, I should still be very happy. After all, the lonely elder brother, who has been clumsy in searching for feelings, is more eager for warmth than anyone else. If I can find someone who can tolerate him and understand his partner, I am the only one who is a younger brother, right?" Jian hugged his head with a smile and said happily, "No matter what, I will always be his younger brother, and this will not change even in a few decades. I will spend my life protecting the brotherhood of this life, so that all the people I cherish, my brother, my parents, and friends will live happily forever..."

Under the moonlight, the silly young man swears as if nothing had happened. His careless appearance engraved the heavy and eternal oath with the moonlight and is forever solidified in this hazy bright moon.

At that moment, Qianxun seemed to remember that in the distant past, he also laughed like this, and said this in front of a relative who is more important than anyone else, to protect the world where that person is and live happily.

At that time, he firmly believed that everything he protected would never be lost, but that once firm belief collapsed in the cruel facts. The bright future that he once thought was just a joke carried by the coward. The man who was once so close to him suddenly became a faint shadow as time flew, and then he was sad, blamed himself, painful, numb, and sighed all day long for his incompetence and stupidity.

Nothing can be changed.

Fate cursed cruelly, sighed, mocked, and laughed wildly.

When the most important person suddenly passes away, you will suddenly realize that the so-called power and the so-called belief are just tricks that fate conceals people's hearts. It looks at you laugh foolishly, thinking that you can protect the important person until time grows old, it looks at you crying heartbrokenly, and is full of grief and anger at the cruel world, but it can only blame itself, remember, lament and guilt, live pale forever, holding fantasies that can change the past, and dreams that will never be realized...

"But..." Chihiro whispered, "I'm here..."

"What?" Long Shenjian's surprised voice shattered Qianxun's involuntarily recalled. His sadness quickly faded away, and his soul returned to his quiet calmness. Qianxun looked around blankly, but suddenly found tears falling from the corners of his eyes. He quickly wiped it with his hands, "It's really... it's strange, what did I just remember?"

Long Shenjian was looking at him nervously, and said strangely: "Have you thought of something sad? It's good that you're fine. If you're not doing anything tomorrow, I'll take you to find the soul chase in the underworld."

Chihiro looked up at the worry-faced Dragon God Key.

Even if this fool is always verbally spoken by him, he still maintains his idiot-like kindness and will be worried about his affairs.

Still believe in the beauty of the world, feel satisfied and happy for today's life, and firmly believe that a beautiful life will continue forever - only fools with such beautiful thoughts will embrace everyone with the greatest kindness.

Because in his eyes, there is something called happiness.

Seeing such a dragon god key, Qianxun suddenly felt a burst of palpitations.

He finally understood why the happiness that is now filled with the emptiness that is wandering around his soul can coexist without conflict.

Such a happy feeling is not without reason.

The reason is very simple.

Because he has long been lost, his happiness is not his.

What he lost before his memory has been...

——I can never find it again.
Chapter completed!