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When the two saw each other, their expressions were stiff. In the end, Shang Shiyan broke the embarrassment.

"Hello, Miss Pan."

"Hello." Pan Luola nodded with a smile.

"Why are you here..." Shang Shiyan asked half of the question, this is a hotel, and apart from booking a room...he is looking for Su Luoze, because this hotel belongs to the Su family.

Pan Luola smiled stiffly, "My brother happens to live here."

"That's it." Shang Shiyan frowned slightly, and thinking of Pan Luola's current situation, it was naturally inconvenient to say anything more.

"I'm leaving now. If I'm late, I'll miss the subway." Panluola turned her eyes to the watch on her wrist to distract herself from her uneasiness.

She gave Su Luoze one last look and prepared to leave.

But Su Luoze frowned and asked, "When did you have a brother?"

Pan Luola happened to walk to his side, paused after listening to his words, opened her red lips and approached him and said, "My beloved brother."

After she finished speaking, she stopped looking at his expression and left quickly.

After finally walking out of the hotel, smelling the night air and feeling the biting cold wind, she took a deep breath and kicked the stones under her feet elsewhere as if to vent her anger.

Thinking about the scene just now, I felt filled with anger.

Damn Su Luoze, go to hell!!!

She kicked the stones under her feet all the way, almost hurting her toes. The sour taste had not passed yet, and her heart ached. Seeing Su Luoze and Shang Shiyan walking together in pairs, she felt her jealousy

My mind almost filled my entire body.

She has sacrificed so much and still hasn't gotten him. Is her love life doomed to be bumpy? But what to do, she is so tired and doesn't want to wait any longer. She wants warmth, and she wants it now.

She really doesn't want to be alone.

"It is a very bad thing for a girl to wander on the roadside."

She was lost in thought when a voice not far away came over. Pan Luola turned around and looked, and it turned out to be Guo Fan.

"elder brother……"

"It's such a cold day, look at you, you're frozen. Come on, get in the car."

Pan Luola was pulled into the car. The car had air conditioning, which made her feel much warmer instantly.

"Whose car does this belong to?" she asked doubtfully. Guo Fan had just returned to China and there was no car in City A.

"Don't worry, it wasn't stolen."

Guo Fan is still so humorous.

"That man, do you like?"

Pan Luola was stunned for a moment, "Have you seen everything?"

"Your bag fell over there. I ran down to deliver it to you, and I happened to see it."

Pan Luola lowered her eyes, crossed her hands together, and said after a long time, "He doesn't like me."

"Then don't like him either."

"But, it's so difficult, I can't control my feelings."

"Find another one, like me. Let me tell you, I am very popular abroad. Those foreign girls all like oriental men like me."

Pan Luola curled her lips and waved at her, "Come on, I'm not a foreign girl."

"Then you like those foreign men with well-developed limbs?"

"Poof" she was amused by Guo Fan's exaggerated movements.

Guo Fan stopped his men's movements, looked at her face with a hint of pain even when she smiled, and said to her seriously, "There are so many men in the world, why bother to stick to just one."

"Yeah, why bother clinging to one." Panluola repeated his words sadly, and then smiled, "Let's wait for a while to heal myself. Don't worry, my healing power is very strong, and I will be able to get out of it soon.

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"I will go to Spring City in a while. When I return to China this time, I don't plan to leave again. Even wanderers have to return to their roots. The scenery there is nice and it is very effective in treating people like you."

Panluola knew what he meant, but she hadn't thought about it yet, so she joked, "It's time for the fallen leaves to return to their roots. How old are you? You don't want to say this until you get married."

"Will a man as good as me not be able to have a family?"

"There's a long queue of girls chasing you. There are too many choices, so I can't make up my mind, haha... I understand."

"Oh……"

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After that meeting with Su Luoze, she didn't see him again for three weeks.

Mrs. Su's intention was very clear. She didn't want her to have too much contact with Su Luoze, and he and Shang Shiyan were in a passionate relationship. If she tried to sabotage it, it would only make them look down upon her even more.

She could stand everyone's looks, but she couldn't stand his.

But life, even without Su Luoze, still has to go on.

After moving to a rented house and thinking deeply while sleeping at night, she found a job in a coffee shop, and slowly her life began to get on track.

The treatment in the coffee shop was pretty good, plus she had acting experience since she was a child, the boss was very kind to her, and the guests all liked her piano playing. She saw that her skill was appreciated by so many people, and she felt happy in her heart.

It was a relief.

This can be regarded as a ray of light in her gloomy life.

In the evening, she took out the admission notice in the drawer and read it again. The day to leave school was getting closer and closer. But she hadn't decided yet whether she should continue pursuing music.

She originally wanted to come back in style and make those who looked down on her dumbfounded.

However, in that case, her life will be very tiring. After all, the school in Vienna is not such an easy place to stay. Everyone in that kind of place is a top student. If she wants honor, she must work hard. Then

In addition, the current situation is not as good as before. She does not have a strong family background, so she has to bear all living expenses, tuition and miscellaneous expenses by herself. Working abroad is different from that at home, and it is certain that she will be bullied. In addition, she has a high heart

An arrogant character will suffer sooner or later.

The more I thought about studying abroad, the more complicated it became. Pan Luola couldn't sleep well all night because of the fuss, and she was almost late for work the next day.

I hurriedly ran to the bathroom to brush my teeth. A feeling of nausea quickly came over me. I bent over and retched for a while before I stopped. Looking at my pale face in the mirror, I was almost shocked. I quickly drank it with water.

She put it on her face to wake herself up. She thought she had eaten something bad. After the nausea subsided, she didn't pay much attention to it. She took it and ran out the door to the coffee shop, where she went to work for a month.

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She also felt something was wrong with her stomach when she was at work. She played several wrong keys because of the discomfort in her stomach. Fortunately, there were not many customers today and they didn't find fault, so she breathed a sigh of relief.

During lunch, her boss saw that she was tired and looked bad, so he kindly asked her to get off work early and go to the hospital for a checkup.

Pan Luola touched her chest. She felt very stuffy today for some reason. If this was abnormal, she should definitely go see a doctor. After the operation, in addition to a low fever, this was the first time she had such complex symptoms.

She felt nauseous and had chest tightness. She took her number and sat in line in the corridor, waiting for a long time before it was her turn.

The doctor listened to her symptoms and examined her again. She was about to tell her about the surgery she had had a few days ago and whether it was caused by this, when the doctor interrupted her thoughts.

"Congratulations, Miss Pan, you are one month pregnant."

"What?" Pan Luola didn't react for a while. She really didn't expect this to happen.

"You are still newly married, but your husband didn't come? You need to take good care of your first child, otherwise it will be easy to miscarry. And your physical condition is not good."

"No, it's not. Doctor, are you mistaken? I had a liver transplant three months ago. The doctor in charge at that time told me that it would be difficult for me to get pregnant in the future."

The doctor listened to her words and chuckled, "It is indeed difficult to get pregnant, but there are exceptions."

"Is the baby healthy?" Pan Luola asked anxiously. Her physical condition was not good, and she was afraid that the baby's health would also be bad.

"The fetus is relatively stable now. As for its health, we won't know until four months later."

"Now that you are pregnant, you need to pay attention to many things. For the sake of your child's health, it is best not to touch tobacco and alcohol. Ask your husband to avoid it as much as possible, because he is the one closest to you and his condition will be directly affected.

to you."

"Okay." Pan Luola nodded. She was so shocked by the news that she could hardly recover.

She stood up, but the doctor gave her the film on the table, "Don't forget to take this, you can keep it as a souvenir. Today's couples, in order to commemorate the arrival of the baby, start collecting pictures from the belly."

Panluola felt a bit of sourness in her heart as she listened to the doctor's words. She didn't have a husband, and this child was an accident. She didn't take any measures the two times she and Su Luoze were together, and she didn't take any medicine afterwards.

She remembered what the doctor had told her before, that after the operation, it would be difficult for her to get pregnant, so she didn't think too much about it. Besides, at that time, how could she have the mind to think about these things and be busy with those things?

She was almost dizzy.

Wandering on the streets with a complicated heart. One thing after another happened, everything was so unexpected. It would always give her a fatal blow when she was caught off guard.

Now her children have become her main concern again. Children and studying abroad cannot have both. She must give up one of the two, but she is troubled by such choices.

She likes Su Luoze, and the child is their child. She loves him, and naturally she loves their child. But the real problem is not that simple. Raising a child according to her current ability is very difficult just thinking about it.

Difficulty. Is it stupid to give up a great future for the sake of children?

What should she do? No matter which one she gives up, she is so confused. Who can help her give her an idea? She really doesn't know what to do.
To be continued...