I am a timid person. I always think about many things but dare not do them.

For example, I want to call you "Jie", I want to be coquettish to you, I want to do a lot of intimate things, and I want to tell you "I love you."

I love you.

I love you who is confident, proud and full of energy;

I love you who is cold, punctual and meticulous;

Those who love you dare to act;

Love your tenderness and affection...

Love all of you.

But my love is so small compared to your love. In addition to loving you, I also love my relatives, friends, and myself. The responsibility of love makes me unable to respond to your love.

If I don't respond to you, it's not because I don't love you, but because I love you too much.

I'm afraid that my love will be less than yours, so I don't say love; I'm afraid that my love won't give you the best happiness, so I don't dare to love; I'm afraid that my love will disrupt your peaceful and peaceful life.

So - silent until now.

The first time I realized I loved you was when you flew to the United States.

It was the first time I tasted the feeling of separation, and I realized how important you are to me. You have become such an important presence in my life without even realizing it.

When I accepted my sister's advice, I told myself that you are my brother-in-law and the person my sister loves deeply. I can love all the men in the world, but I just can't fall in love with you.

But, I still fell in love...

Responsibility makes me choose to escape. I have never dared to face my love for you. I even deceived myself and said that you have never loved me.

Only if you had never loved me would the burden on my heart feel better. I left you resolutely, thinking that as long as I left you, I could forget you - but this love was far deeper than I imagined.

When I was in "Senair", I would dream every day that you caught me and asked me why I betrayed you?

I seem to be a sinner. I fell in love with my brother-in-law, cheated on him, and betrayed my sister. Even my love for Mu Xicheng changed.

I always thought that my love with him stayed at 4 years ago and has never changed. But even when I didn’t know it, I had already gone far...

I love you, Su Shijie.

If I make my love for you public, what will happen to my sister, what will happen to Mu Xicheng, what will happen to my mother, and what will the world think?

This guilt is like a big snowball, rolling day by day, getting bigger and bigger, and is about to push me into a desperate situation.

Finally, you captured me back to you.

Seeing your hatred for me, I was overwhelmed with pain. Maybe you have never loved me - I have always deceived myself in this way to feel better. So I chose to continue to blind my eyes and not see everything you have done for me.

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I'm really a coward.

A coward who can't even afford love...

Su Shijie, why do you want to fall in love with me? You can definitely fall in love with a woman who is thousands of times better than me!

I always think that if you had not met me and fallen in love with me, you would definitely be living a happy life now. Instead of being dragged into the whirlpool of hatred by me and living so hard every day.

This kind of self-blame makes me feel miserable and overwhelmed every day.

All the pressure in my heart does not come from you falling in love with me, but from the fact that I don't deserve your love at all.

Su Shijie, you said that love is your business alone.

I am very happy that love is your business alone...

I'm glad you can forget about me and like other women.
Chapter completed!