If I really started writing novels, I had written some in middle school and high school. However, at that time, I did not write novels but some essays and some unwritten poems, because I happened to be fascinated by those things at that time. I remember that the popular class was historical essayist, which was mainly influenced by the historical essayist Yu Qiuyu. His book "Cultural Journey" was like Andy Lau in Hong Kong in our class at that time. For this reason, I also began to learn to write historical essays, but after writing a few essays, I really couldn't continue. The main reason is that I think I can guess even if I don't say it. I can say that I know very little about history, and it's not bad. Besides, it's true.

When I was young, I naturally did not have the heavy sense of history of Mr. Yu Qiuyu, so I racked my brains to write two historical essays, but I was embarrassed to read the things I wrote. From then on, I didn’t write essays. I put all my main experiences on writing poetry, but poetry is like an opportunity and is hard to come by. Therefore, after I searched the dictionary for more than half a month, I completely gave up writing poetry. Next, I didn’t know what to do. I did nothing every day except class, playing football, and playing games. As a young man who was only 18 years old, I really didn’t have the ability to deal with endless time and endless energy. This was a weightless day, and it was even more a confused day.

After a while of confusion, one day, a friend of mine secretly said to me: "Xiao Jing, you love writing so much. You can try to write novels. That thing is very popular now. If you write well, many people are reading it? And I think this thing is more suitable for you than those prose poems, right?" My friend's words had a great influence on me at that time. After wandering for a long time, I suddenly felt that what my friend said made sense. Maybe the novel is really the most suitable for me, but I didn't dare to write it at that time because writing novels can't be done overnight. What he needs is time and energy. At that time, I was in high school. This may be the most important hurdle in life for an 18-year-old young man. Occasionally, I can't tolerate myself leaving a bad impression of not doing my job on others. Therefore, I almost endured the pain and finished high school and college.

In the autumn of 2009, I graduated from college and came to work alone in a small company in Zhejiang with simple luggage. Since I had just been freed from the heavy academic work, my daily work life seemed to have lost something. After a while of confusion, I finally realized that I was missing words. After saying goodbye to it for a few years, I picked up my pen again to the computer, and from that moment on I started my words.

Friends often ask me why you want to write. I suddenly remembered Yu Hua's preface: "Writing is fate. When you are bored, when you don't know what to do at all, there are infinitely diverse possibilities lurking in front of you. In fact, you finally give up all possibilities and naturally obey your instincts. Instinct lurks in our blood. When the wind and rain come, it will surely bloom in spring, so I said, this is fate. At night, my colleagues all fell asleep, and I couldn't sleep, so I picked up a pen and sipped

I write until two in the morning or three in the morning. It’s like this every day. What did I write? I don’t know. During that period, my writing was just a simple physiological behavior. I had to rely on writing to toss the endless time, and at the same time I toss the endless energy, and then, I feel at ease and wash and sleep. If I were allowed to make a metaphor, at that time I was just a car full of oil in the fuel tank, and the keys would roar. However, there was no steering wheel, no brake, no goal, or even no road.

From 2006 to 2010, I came through the four or five years when I wrote it, retreated, and wrote it again. The endless failure inspired my utilitarianism, and I decided to take myself as a bet and bet all of it."

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Chapter completed!