Only if you can give birth to a child for the Yan family can you truly integrate into the family.

But later I learned that it was too risky to have a baby at her age.

And if the child is not a son, but a daughter, wouldn't that be the same?

After all, she has to get married and cannot be considered a member of the Yan family.

Then after a hundred years, she still won't be able to escape the identity of an outsider.

Thinking about it this way, it's really quite sad.

There is inevitably such a delusion in my heart - "How great would it be if Xiaoling could be with Yan Xin?"

If this is the case, the daughter does not need to marry outside, she is both her daughter and her daughter-in-law.

The child she gives birth to is both her grandson and her grandson.

He is also related to her by blood.

This is a real family!

But what a pity, Yan Xin already has a partner.

This made her very depressed.

——I’m not that sentimental on weekdays, but during the Chinese New Year, because of a question about worship, I suddenly felt like an outsider, and I had these thoughts.

It's so embarrassing to have a combined family.

However, it would be too difficult to choose to go it alone and face the cruel reality in order to avoid those embarrassments.

She knew very well how difficult it had been over the years, and if she were asked to do it again, she wouldn't have the courage.

After getting married, my living conditions have indeed improved a lot, and I don't have to worry so much about my daughter.

She didn't know what kind of situation she would be in as an outsider after Yan's father was gone.

But at least Yan's father is still here, so she can live a good life, be taken care of, and be respected.

It's worth it.

It's better than carrying it all alone.

What she worries most about is her daughter.

But she really can't do anything to help her daughter.

Like Yan's father, although she is still living in this era, she is already a laggard of this era.

At most, it can guarantee that my daughter will not starve to death at home, but there is no way to guarantee anything else.

She brought her daughter to marry into the Yan family. With Yan Xin's help, her daughter immediately found a good job and earned more money in more than a month than she earned in a year.

With just one word to Yan Xin, her daughter's fate changed.

This further proves that her marriage was the right choice.

The Yan family came to rescue her and her daughter.

She has nothing to complain about.

If I must complain, I can only complain that my life is not good. I did not meet such a good family in my first marriage, but only met a short-lived man.

She didn't do anything wrong.

The Yan family didn't do anything to feel sorry for her.

My identity is a little awkward now. It is purely fate and I can't blame anyone.

There was a little bit of resentment in my heart, but I hid it and didn't show it.

Seeing Yan's father coming back with the two little ones, she smiled again and asked them:

"Why are you back so soon? Thank you for your hard work."

She noticed that Bai Xiaoling and Yan Xin were still holding hands, and the smiles on their faces became even stronger.

——Even if these two little ones can't get together, it's a good thing that the relationship between brother and sister has improved.

With such a capable brother, her daughter will not suffer in the future.

Even if you suffer a loss, there are still people who can help you regain your position.

This is what makes her most at ease.

Bai Xiaoling replied with a smile: "It's not very hard, but the way up the mountain was quite tiring. I almost couldn't climb it."

In fact, the mountain is not high, and it is not very tiring to climb up, but that's what she has to say.

Because when she was going up the mountain, she used the excuse that she was tired, panting and saying that she couldn't climb anymore, and then she took this opportunity to ask Yan Xin to pull her hand, and they succeeded.

With this precedent, it seemed natural that he would still hold hands with Yan Xin when he went down the mountain.

——In fact, Yan Xin really wanted to refuse. He felt that it was not good, and it would not be good for others to see it.

However, during the Chinese New Year, a sister who was not related by blood to her family did not pay homage to her biological father's grave, but came to visit her mother's grave. She was too tired to move forward, so she asked him to pull it.

Sometimes I really can't refuse.

It would be very inhumane to refuse.

Now that they have done it once, they will hold hands next time, so they are not so repelled.

——In fact, it was impossible for him to throw away Bai Xiaoling's hand when she grabbed his hand and held his hand.

That would hurt your self-esteem.

If it spreads, it may even cause the split of this combined family.

So he can only continue to accept it.

In fact, he was a little uneasy - he was worried that Wu Xiuhong would be angry after seeing it and think that he was going to abduct her daughter.

But fortunately, nothing like that happened.

Wu Xiuhong saw them holding hands, with a smile on her face, without showing any trace of blame.

I felt relieved, but also felt ashamed, thinking: "I am still too dirty, always thinking about things that are and are not. This is how a normal relationship between brothers and sisters should be. They treat me as a family member, so they think it's okay.

It’s normal, but I think it’s not good. It’s my fault and I treat them as outsiders. Alas, I’m ashamed!”

When they got home, the brother and sister no longer had to hold hands.

There were no other activities in the afternoon. For dinner, I just ate the leftovers from lunch and cooked a little. There was nothing to be busy about.

So the four of them did nothing else in the afternoon. They set up a small round table in the main room on the first floor, with a coal stove underneath. Then they put a blanket on the table, and the four of them gathered around it and sat at the table.

Hit a hundred percent.

This place has such a habit. During the Spring Festival, every household plays cards.

Most of the cards are played by family members, and the winning and losing are all within the family, which means that the wealth does not go to other people's fields.

It's more about entertainment.

There are also a small number of people who play cards with people from other people’s families, which makes the nature a little different.

But later on, such customs and habits gradually disappeared. Fewer family members got together to play cards. The whole family just played on their mobile phones at home, or just chatted.

Those who are addicted to cards can go to the chess and card room to play cards. The boss will pump money, but will also provide them with food, so everyone can take what they need.

Nowadays, mobile phones are not that fun, not many people even have mobile phones, and there is no good TV to watch on the afternoon of New Year’s Eve, so playing cards is the mainstream.

The Yan family used to be like that.

Yan Xin learned to play cards when he was a few years old.

However, there were only two fathers and sons left in the family, and their relationship was not very good at that time, so there was no such tradition.

Now the family of four is enjoying themselves happily, just picking up the old tradition.

The fight lasted until about six o'clock in the evening.

In more than three hours, Yan Xin lost more than a thousand yuan.

It wasn't a big fight, he would lose alone.

The other three all won.

The one who won the most was Bai Xiaoling.

In things like playing cards, when a person wants to win, he may not be able to win, but when he wants to lose, he can definitely lose.

Yan Xin didn't want his family members to be in a bad mood because they lost money, which would affect their mood during the New Year.

So he often loses on purpose.

Bai Xiaoling won most of the more than a thousand yuan.

This is not because Yan Xin lost to her, the main reason is that her skills are indeed higher.

Young people's minds are inherently more active.

If Yan Xin hadn't deliberately let the situation slip, Bai Xiaoling might have won, but the two old men would definitely lose, and they would lose a lot.
To be continued...