chapter 4 self-denial
Chen Yi ignored her mother's guess and called Xiao Le's home phone number, and she heard her obviously regaining anger from the other end.
"Honey, my husband was so late?"
"Just just arrived home, my mom said how many times have you called?"
"Well... Auntie doesn't seem to be very fierce. She is very good. I was very scared at first, but later I thought it was very good and I was very concerned about me. Hehe, I said that it's not a big deal for children to fall in love, but we should focus on learning, and some things should be measured, especially girls suffer... "
Chen Yi was speechless and never expected that his mother would tell someone she was unfamiliar with.
"My mother is very kind, but she has a little irritable temper. Haha..."
"I don't think so, my aunt asked me to go to your house for dinner when I have time. My aunt's cooking must be delicious, right?"
Chen Yi didn't know how to answer this sentence. When Chen's mother first came to this city, she couldn't even use gas stoves, let alone many seasonings that were not available in the countryside. What she didn't get used to most was that the pots in the city were very small, probably only one-eighth of the pots in the countryside. Instead, Chen's father, who had been the squad leader of the gang, taught her step by step.
Chen’s mother’s cooking level is sometimes high and sometimes low, which is probably related to her mood, and perhaps it has to do with the strong taste in the countryside. Both oil and salt are very heavy, and Chen’s father often blames her for this habit and thinks it is not delicious.
"There are a few special dishes that are very good. My mother is very good at making soup. There are no guests who come to my house who don't like it yet."
"I want to try it all..." Xiao Le's voice became weaker and weaker, as if he was a little embarrassed.
"Come tomorrow."
"The day after tomorrow, come to my house to play tomorrow. I will tell you something." After Xiao Le finished speaking, he was silent for a few seconds, and then said in a low voice, "It doesn't matter if you come to your house, right?"
"Of course it's okay." Chen Yi laughed silently, and she still felt nervous when she knew she was.
"Auntie and uncle, um...and what do your sister Wenwen like?"
"No."
"I want it, otherwise why would I have the nerve to come to the door!"
"Go together then, let's discuss it."
"Okay." Xiao Legang agreed and asked again, "Is it okay to bring chocolate to Wenwen? Uncle just tie it? Auntie... By the way, last time I saw a very beautiful crystal necklace in the business, would I buy that one?"
Chen Yi didn't know what to say, and then she realized that she would not be able to sleep at all without finalizing this problem.
"This is a good idea. It's exactly what they like."
...
After putting down the phone, Chen Yi thought about whether he could handle the money in his passbook. It was impossible for Xiao Le to spend the money. After thinking for a while, he felt that it was OK. Crystal necklace, chocolate, and tie, it would not cost too much money.
The next morning, he told Chen's mother about what Xiao Le came. Chen's mother agreed without any special expression, and Wenwen seemed very excited and looking forward to it.
Wenwen ran in while Chen Yi was washing up.
"Brother, my parents are discussing what dishes to prepare tomorrow night."
Chen Yi couldn't help but be surprised. He didn't expect that his parents would pay so much attention. Chen's father, who didn't care much, had to make the decision on his mother. It was rare to discuss it.
"Brother, my dad just said that he had taken out the shark fins given by someone else during the New Year, but my mom agreed."
Chen Yi couldn't help but feel a little strange. Shark fin is a luxury in this era. Wenwen has been pestering her to eat it several times and scolded her, and she has never been reluctant to let Kaifeng go.
He felt a little strange. He thought he was still young now, so it was hard to say how far he could go with Xiao Le. It was impossible for his parents not to think so, so why do they still pay so much attention?
He was still thinking about this issue on the way to school.
But he found that Yu Chengjie was particularly silent today. Although he didn't necessarily have something to say, his expression seemed to be full of worries.
But he didn't ask, just as he often thought about his own thoughts and Yu Chengjie wouldn't ask questions even if he saw it. For example, the common tacit understanding between them was necessary to tell each other and want to tell them.
"I feel a little sorry for you."
Yu Chengjie suddenly made a conversation, which made Chen Yi subconsciously guess that it was related to Lu Yao.
"Why?"
"If you tell me that I like Lu Yao."
"That's all, it has nothing to do with me."
Yu Chengjie remained silent. After a while, he suddenly spoke in shock.
"You didn't go that day at noon, and I almost went with Lu Yao..." Yu Chengjie blushed, and after holding it in for a long time, two words popped up. "...Kiss..."
If it were Chen Yi in the past, he would have been surprised. Now he seems to think this kind of thing is very ordinary, not at all surprised, nor does he have the interest in discussing it in elementary school. He doesn't know if this means it has become more simple.
"I have nothing to do with her, you don't have to have any psychological burden."
"She told me a lot about dating you. Later, she was very sad and slapped on my shoulder and cried. Later, I was a little involuntarily. She seemed a little out of shape. But at a critical moment, I didn't kiss her and pushed her away. After she came to her senses, she told me to leave."
This surprised Chen Yi. He didn't expect Yu Chengjie to have such determination.
"Why?"
"This is not what I want. I think love should be wholeheartedly and it is completely the investment of two people. I only thought about it today. Although I still couldn't help but like her, I would no longer fantasize about how I would do with her. Because she and I couldn't have the kind of relationship I wanted, she always missed you."
"That's probably because I'm sorry for you."
"It has nothing to do with you. She didn't like me either. She must have been confused at that time and treated me as you."
Chen Yi laughed and said, "That's impossible. We don't look like it. You look thin in size. There are two types."
"She said she thought we were very similar, both were very smart, all were cool, and didn't like to tell people about their own affairs."
"Even if you tell me this, are you trying to persuade me?"
Yu Chengjie admitted frankly. "I shouldn't have mixed things with you, I just think Lu Yao is good, why would you not want her?"
"I haven't told you that, actually the people I like are in my dreams. So to be honest, no matter Lu Yao or Xiao Le, I don't have that kind of kind to them... What you understand is the feeling. I am obsessed, devoted and selfless."
Yu Chengjie was silent for a while and suddenly spit out a few words. "Then why should I be happy with them?"
Chen Yiru was struck by lightning and was stunned.
‘Then why should you be kind to them?’
He suddenly remembered his questions about marriage when he saw his parents quarrel since childhood.
‘Why did such a marriage be married in the first place?’
Thinking of the woman saved in the garden at that time, he asked her, "It was a quarrel and suspicion, why did you get married?"
He felt that this must be done to Xiao Le, even if he did not have that feeling of love or fantasy for her at the beginning. He also wanted to say this, but the question still goes back to this sentence. Since that is the case, why should I be with her?
Because you have to be responsible.
Why should I be together if I take responsibility but don’t love her?
Because you have to be responsible.
Why should I be together if I take responsibility but don’t love her?
Repeated answers and questions made Chen Yi feel a headache. He felt the pain of denying himself for the first time. Originally, he always believed that his life would be perfect and he must work hard to be perfect. If he doesn’t love, don’t be together, love each other and go on together, and try to overcome any difficulties, don’t quarrel, and don’t fight. This is one of the concepts he has established since childhood, but now, he suddenly finds that there is a gap in the perfection of this concept.
It was the gap he created, he didn't do it at all!
"This question makes you embarrassed?"
Yu Chengjie noticed his strangeness and expressed some care.
Chapter completed!