Chapter 70. Letter
Looking at Qianxia Qianxue breaking out of the door, Bai Fan was also a little funny, but he didn't have the idea of chasing him out. This girl wanted to let him go over and help stand in a place, and maybe she won't take action then.
But Bai Fan might have something to do tomorrow, so he didn't agree.
"Forget it, this flat-breasted Chiyuki begs me like this. I'll call you later and ask if Eri will leave tomorrow or the day after tomorrow."
He glanced at the small diary on the bookshelf, thought about it, but took it down again.
The overall diary is a thick black cover, and the footer is a little worn. It looks like the owner has traces of frequent use. As for why Eri Hayakawa gave her diary to herself, Bai Fan felt that perhaps this was a way for her to express her sincerity. After all, Eri Hayakawa is very thin-skinned and has a quiet temperament of a literary girl. Using her diary to express her true heart may be her only way.
He reached out and opened the title page of the diary, and saw that it was written in a well-skinned and delicate font.
‘Cowards are afraid of happiness, they are injured when they touch cotton, and sometimes they are injured by happiness.’
This is a sentence from Osamu Dazai's famous work "The Disqualification of the World". The so-called "The Disqualification of the World" translated into "losing the qualification to be a human". The "Human" in Japanese actually means human.
Bai Fan raised his eyebrows, moved his fingers slightly, and turned to the next page.
The content of Hayakawa Eri's diary was unexpectedly simple, and it was probably just about introducing trivial matters in life. Sometimes when she met a cat and made delicious dishes at home, she would record them one by one, but no matter which one was, it was an extremely warm daily life. She never brought any unhappiness or negative emotions into her diary.
But perhaps it was her actions that made her subconsciously bring melancholy strokes to her diary. She actually didn't live well, but she didn't express it. She actually knew everything, but she didn't say it.
Bai Fan reads the diary very quickly, almost at a glance. He doesn't want to read it too carefully. Although this diary was given to him by Eri Hayakawa, he doesn't want to peek at Eri Hayakawa's heart too much.
Her diary gives people the feeling of being a melancholy girl, looking at the endless rain outside the window, longing for the arrival of light, and fearing the sunshine. The contradictions are complex. Even if she writes about Bai Fan's arrival in the back, the situation will still be like this. This is the mood that has troubled her for more than ten years, so it is naturally not so easy to solve it in a month.
Bai Fan looked at it and saw the last page. After turning back, he saw a simple note stuck in the diary.
I spread it flat on the table and saw a lot of words written in neat and delicate fonts. Bai Fan read it carefully, as if the voice of Hayakawa Eri was right in his ears.
Bai Jun personally opened up.
I have always been cared for by Bai Jun, and Eri thanks you very much.
But when you see this letter, it must be the time for me to leave Yokohama?
Chapter completed!