Chapter 1 Life is a meaningless absurd drama
If you can choose, Tang Que will never ask for time travel; if you know in advance that you will be time travel one day, Tang Que will definitely change his major choice in college. Even if you don’t study steel shipbuilding, economics and political science, at least you can learn glass and papermaking, even if you are a veterinarian. But unfortunately, time travel cannot be predicted and you cannot choose.
Therefore, when Tang Que, who graduated from the Chinese Department, realized that he had been traveling to the Tang Dynasty, he finally deeply understood the words of the teacher in the university class that year - Chinese Department graduates are 生集豫豫. The so-called 生集豫 means that you don’t have much, and you don’t have much. In a nutshell, it’s useless.
If Tang Que had not been lying in this room for two days, then he would never have thought that someone would be so poor as to this level of poverty when he grew up in the city and his parents had a successful career!
What kind of house is this! The wall built with rammed earth on all sides exploded into cracks. Because the building was built for too long, the number and size of these exploded cracks were shocking. At least Tang Que had no doubt that his hands could pass through the widest crack on the right side of the wall smoothly.
The ones covering all the light earth walls are not even tiles, but the legendary thatch. Because the thatch has not been renovated for a long time, it makes the room below have a strong pungent smell of fermented grass.
There is a window dug out from the earth wall opposite Tang Que's bed. The window with three firewood sticks inside is very small, which makes it very little light to enter the house. It is precisely because of this that the house where Tang Que lives now is not only strong in mold, but also dark all day long, and basically cannot feel the changes in the sky light and the passage of time.
"If all the time travelers are arranged together, I will definitely be one of the worst, even if I am not the worst." It has been two days since Tang Que traveled back, and the two days have not been long, but he has been able to accept the reality in front of him and try to look at such facts with a peaceful attitude. Even after the initial shock, when Tang Que looked at the thatched on his head with the blurry light of the small window, he also recited Du Fu's "The Song of the Thatched Hut Destroyed by the Autumn Wind" to mock himself.
"The wind in August is roaring, and it rolls up the three-fold thatch on my house." The only thing I can talk about masturbating is that the current season is in early spring. Otherwise, Tang Quzhen would not know how to survive the winter without air conditioning and electric heater, just because the quilt that is not much thicker than paper on the body now is covered with?
In such an environment, he can still use "The Song of the Thatched Hut Destroyed by the Autumn Wind" to make himself laugh. This at least shows that Tang Que's personality is tough enough and can be regarded as optimistic. Optimism is nothing. For children born in the 1980s and who grew up in an intellectual family, optimism is a common feature. They grew up with the reform and opening up, and their family conditions were good. They have never suffered much since childhood, and they firmly believe that they will not suffer much in the future.
It is indeed nothing to be optimistic about a person, but tenacity is rare. After all, it is difficult to create such a personality with a smooth environment. Speaking of this, we must mention Tang Que's parents.
Tang Que's parents are Gaozhi, real senior intellectuals. They are professors in the same "985" university. There are many names and treatments attached to them, such as enjoying special allowances from the State Council, doctoral supervisors, Yangtze River scholars, discipline leaders, young and middle-aged experts with outstanding contributions, etc. If they are given their titles in various professional associations and boards, the list on them will become longer and grow so that no one is interested in reading them.
However, in this dazzling long list, the only thing that should be had but not had is: qualified parents.
The reason why the word "qualification" is used instead of "excellence" is because this couple in the famous academic circles are far from qualified when treating their only son, let alone excellent. If it is a bit stingy, they may belong to the school, students, and their respective majors, but they definitely do not belong to Tang Que.
Tang Que grew up with his aunt since childhood. This woman who lost her husband in her early years was actually the nanny of Tang Que's family. Perhaps because of heredity, Tang Que's grades have been very good since childhood, but in the face of such good grades, he almost never heard of his parents' praise for him. His deskmate, a child who was not as good as his in all aspects, was praised by his parents for two months just because he scored 95 points in math.
After growing up, Tang Que naturally knew that what he really wanted was not praise, but hoped that his parents could come out of their close study rooms, so that they could hold less seminars and spend more time paying attention to him.
There is no praise for his performance, so what about his performance? When Tang Que was in his first year of high school, he couldn't say he was being led badly. Instead, he took the initiative to get along with those classmates who liked to hang out on the street, skipping classes, fighting, and finally developing into stealing things from other people's shops. However, when Tang Que was cut with his hands and handcuffed to the tree in the police station yard, he was full of hope that his parents would come to pick him up like his classmates' parents, and he waited until his aunt's worried face was still there.
"Why didn't they come?" When he walked out of the police station, Tang Que had no regrets on his face, but instead a kind of suppressed anger and disappointment. He had been looking forward to today for a long time. He had thought about the expression when facing his parents many times. It would be a grievance hidden under rebelliousness. He would explain in front of his parents little by little what he did, how he did, and what he thought of when he did it. If they wanted to scold him, he would not be afraid to tell the indifferent treatment he had been in the police station for so many years. For Tang Que, this was a feat that he had been planning for a long time, but unfortunately, this feat had no end - his parents did not come at all, and none of them came.
"Your father has a very important academic conference in Beijing." My aunt knew Tang Que's thoughts and felt inexplicably guilty for not being able to persuade her brother-in-law and sister to come here in person, so she was a little afraid to look at her nephew's eyes when she spoke. "As for your mother... she is preparing a project report for a project. I heard that if it is approved, the scientific research cost will be tens of millions...so..."
"I understand, aunt, let's go back!" This seems hard to imagine, but the tone of seventeen-year-old Tang Que when he said this sentence was indeed more sad than calmness.
It was not until three days later that his father held an academic conference and conducted a thorough analysis of the academic frontier dynamics of the major. His mother received news of the successful project establishment that the couple remembered that they had a son of a "problem boy" who needed care.
This rare family meeting lasted for two hours. Tang Que just listened quietly. After they all finished speaking, he spoke out the only sentence: "Are you finished speaking? After that, I went back to my room, and there will be self-study tomorrow morning."
According to the conventional expression method of academic conferences, this is a fruitful family meeting. Just as Tang Que's "bad" process was very sudden, he seemed to have eliminated all his bad habits overnight. He became the top student who did not worry about his parents or teachers.
Time passed like water. In Tang Que's parents' life of "every family is like sending a house", Tang Que took the college entrance examination, checked his own scores, and filled out his own application. It was not until the admission notice that his parents knew that his son was going to study in the Chinese department, and the admission notice was a school far away from home.
His parents hadn't seen him for four years, and Tang Que had fewer people back by himself. Almost all the calls from his family once a week were filled with my aunt's voice.
Tang Que always felt that besides having a safe life, there seemed to be no big difference between him and an orphan without parents. He had to bear all the problems he had to take on himself in his growth. It was this experience that created Tang Que's tenacious character.
If it was the previous growth experience that made Tang Que's personality become tenacious, then the appearance and departure of the goldfish turned Tang Que into a real nihilist.
Jinyu is a girl with an 80-minute look but a 100-cent personality. She is Tang Que's first love. During the three years of love, she gave Tang Que a lot of care. It was she who used her care and smile to melt the ice in Tang Que's heart.
The explosion after a piece of ice melted was absolutely amazing. The efforts of the goldfish were rewarded by Tang Que wholeheartedly. To be honest, those three years were really beautiful, just like the brilliant peach blossoms in the school’s peach garden.
It was also for the sake of Jinyu that after graduation, Tang Que did not return to the prosperous provincial capital of his hometown, but stayed in a northern prefecture-level city where Jinyu's family was located. The two worked in the same branch of a foreign-funded company.
Life after work is also good, and the income is good in this prefecture-level city. The two of them live together. Jinyu's parents are also very satisfied with Tang Que's son-in-law. After working, after they were crazy in bed, their favorite thing was to hug each other nakedly and fantasize about their life after marriage.
Just as the two of them were fantasizing about what major they should study when their children went to college, their lives suddenly reversed by 180 degrees. From the time they found that the goldfish was in a bad state to the sudden departure, there was only one week between them.
A week ago, the two of them hugged each other and rubbed each other's hands. A week later, the goldfish was far away from the ocean, and the people around her were replaced by Tang Que to a French nose with a slightly body odor.
Tang Que never understood why Jinyu left suddenly. Based on his understanding of Jinyu, she was not the kind of woman who loved money and could give up everything for money. But if it wasn't for money, then why? Tang Que did not find the answer for Jinyu's parents who were quite guilty, and some of the two old men were confused and confused.
The quietly leaving of the goldfish without taking away a cloud made Tang Que a standard nihilist. The so-called nihilism means that the world view and life view cultivated in the past suddenly collapsed. Tang Que, who was in his twenties, could no longer find the meaning of life, career and even life itself.
What exactly is human beings living for?
When Tang Que asked him this question over and over again, he became a complete nihilist.
Then, Tang Que began to go to bars and different entertainment venues frequently, discuss and practice the so-called true and false love with different women. Then he went to different women, and in the process, verified the conclusion that life itself is meaningless again and again, and then... and then he traveled through time, to be precise, his soul traveled through time.
His body remains on the bed covered with body fluids of men and women in the 21st century, while his soul traveled through more than 1,300 years of time and space, occupied a new body in the way of taking over the body of the soul and was reborn.
"Yes, life is a meaningless absurd farce." After summarizing the strange time travel that happened to him, Tang Que quickly fell into a deep sleep again.
Chapter completed!