Yunhua looked at Bo Siqing.

Her eyes were filled with all kinds of entanglements and pain...

"Drawing, I thought we were the people we trust the most. If even life could be delivered, what else could not be known to me?" Bo Siqing held her face, put his forehead against her forehead, looked straight at her, and said word by word.

Yunhua's tears suddenly fell.

"I...nothing, I just...just..."

How can she say what she has suffered?

The man in front of me is the person she trusts the most and the person she loves the most, but the more she loves, the more timid he becomes. If he knew that he was so stupid, she...

She could say anything, and even the secret of rebirth could be told to him, but she really couldn't tell him her unbearable past.

She couldn't say it.

"Okay, okay, I won't ask." Seeing her like this, he felt distressed and hugged her directly, "Okay, it's not good for me, I shouldn't force you. Be good, if you don't want to say it, there is no need to say it, the past has passed, it's not important, what's important is now, okay, no longer afraid, no longer afraid..."

He hugged her tightly in his arms, patted her on the back gently, comforting her.

The cloud painting gradually calmed down.

She gently sat up from his arms and looked at him, "A Qing, it's not that I don't want to tell you, but that for me, it's really a memory that is too unbearable. I...I..."

"I know, needless to say." Bo Siqing quickly stopped her, "Tell me first, did you feel anything at that time?"

Yunhua shook her head with a wry smile.

She knew he was changing the subject and wanted to connect her fainting situation with her gradually disappearing perception.

"I didn't feel anything." Yunhua said softly, "I fainted because I saw that blue sea of ​​flowers..."

"Seeing the blue sea of ​​flowers?" Bo Siqing frowned, "You have seen it before."

"Yes." Yunhua looked at him, "There is another time, what you should know is at the S City Mental Health Research Institute. That time... Brother Ci and Sister Mo Mo should have told you."

"Sayed." Bo Siqing looked at her, "I'm very worried."

Yunhua nodded gently, "I know. This time the situation is similar to that time. I saw the blue sea of ​​flowers... Oh no, it should be said that when I saw the blue sea of ​​flowers in the mental hospital, I would... I would think of the past that I had been unable to look back on. That was the place where I...the weakest and most feared..."

"Aqing, do you know what I fear the most?" she said to him.

"What?"

"What I fear most is not death, but after death, will it be destroyed in ashes, or will it return to the place where I came. If it is destroyed in ashes, it is probably the best destination, and if it is returned to the place where I came..." Yun Hua was filled with sadness and breathed for a long time before he gently said the last word, "Then I will be worse than death."

Looking at her eyes, Bo Siqing's heart trembled suddenly.

He hugged her tightly, and the force seemed to be so hard that he wanted to rub her into his body.

And it was this hug that was so tight that she couldn't breathe, but she felt safe and felt like her feet were stepping on the ground.

"No, no, I won't let you go." Bo Siqing's voice was extremely firm, "I won't let you go, I will never let you go. Even if you really don't belong here, I won't let you go! I will just treat you as a for me. If you come, you will provoke me, don't want to leave!"

...

The two sat in embrace each other, and it took a long time before Yunhua's mood completely calmed down.

"Drawing, I won't mention this matter again in the future." Bo Siqing whispered, "But your situation is too serious, I'm a little worried."

"What are you worried about?"

"Your situation is a stress response, the body's self-protection mechanism, the combination of mental hospitals and blue iris has even replaced those terrifying memories and has become a deep-rooted picture in your brain. As long as you are in a mental hospital and then see a large number of blue iris in a mental hospital, this combination will have a great impact on you. It is similar to a serious allergen. As soon as you touch this allergen, you will be allergic instantly, and your allergic symptoms are also very serious!"

Bo Siqing said, "I'm worried that if you don't interfere, in some cases, if you suddenly experience this situation again... it will be dangerous."

Yun Hua pursed her lips, "But, how should I interfere with the treatment? I..."

"This is a psychological problem, and a professional psychologist should be involved." Bo Siqing said, "In fact, just like treating various psychological disorders, it is similar to the desensitization therapy used when treating allergies. You are exposed to weak stimulation a little bit, and after you get used to a certain stimulation, it will increase until you can adapt like a normal person."

Yunhua's hand that fell on his waist couldn't help but clench his shirt.

"Then...then...then you want to find Brother Beiqian?" Yunhua's voice was hesitant, "Do I... want to ask Brother Beiqian if he has time? Maybe he is busy..."

"No." Bo Siqing shook his head, "Don't look for Beiqian. This matter is too important to me. I dare not let anyone know, otherwise, there is a very likely someone will deliberately put you in a trap based on this."

"Who are you looking for?" Yunhua said, "Don't you trust Brother Beiqian's words more?"

"I have already arranged it." Bo Siqing said, "You go abroad every month on the grounds of training. I contacted a teacher. He is old and has long stopped receiving psychological counseling. The key is that there are very few people who know that he has worked in this area. He is now a foodie. If you meet him, others will not think about psychological counseling."

"...Okay." Yun Hua took a deep breath and nodded in agreement.

She knew that Bo Siqing was doing it for her own good, and if doing so would make him feel at ease, she would be willing to do it.

But in fact, she was not optimistic about this because she knew how heavy her defense was. She had no way to trust anyone except Bo Siqing.

The secret of her rebirth can only be told to him by himself, and others will not... at all.

As for the secrets of mental hospitals and Blue Iris, she didn't trust Bo Siqing, but... she couldn't say it.

It’s like letting a girl who has been violently abused tell everything about the person she loves the most, without trust, it’s just... inferiority complex.

"By the way, how did Gu Huaiyi's case be investigated? I didn't help either." Yun Hua hesitated, "Or, I'll go there again. This time I'm mentally prepared and it should be fine. The main reason is that I seem to feel something!"
Chapter completed!