Chapter 103 My Player, I'll Guard
Warm people, the world will respond to warmth.
This is what the old man often says, and the old man does the same.
But after regaining hope, Xie Wen felt the bone-chilling cold again.
When he returned to the room, he did not choose to log in to Quanshen as usual. Tears kept falling, and he couldn't help crying.
After saying the words "I wish you happiness in the future", he felt aching in his heart, but he did not express it, but chose to respond to the girl with a smile.
But the heart, hidden under the smile, suddenly opened a gap.
On the day the operation was successful, the girl said that she would go together in the future, and he believed it.
But after only a few days of restoring her eyesight and seeing the beauty of the world, she chose to abandon herself.
Xie Wen didn't resent her, he just hated that he was a blind man and was not worthy of her.
Even if we are together, the days ahead will only be a burden.
Not worthy of it myself!
Xie Wen, who locked himself in the room and kept crying, had symptoms of PTSD reappeared.
I couldn't help feeling fear and despair inside, and the darkness in front of me was gradually swallowed up by the darkness.
Loneliness fills the heart, and the despair is like falling into the abyss.
This night, he spent the struggle, and had impulsive thoughts in his mind more than once.
But whenever he has an idea, he will try to think about his grandfather and force himself to free himself from this state.
At dawn, Xie Wen was sweating all over.
No one knew that he had been struggling between life and death for a long time and almost couldn't survive.
At this time, his heart was filled with cracks and was shrouded in darkness.
When he was in despair, he could still hope that hope would appear, but when the light of hope appeared in despair, he thought that the world was so bright, the light quickly disappeared.
At that moment, Xie Wen's heart completely collapsed.
At this time, Xie Wen was sitting quietly in the room like a walking corpse.
In a daze, time passes quickly.
Until nightfall, Xie Wen still did not break free from despair.
He felt that he had no goals, no ideas, and no future, and he really wanted to leave.
But thinking of the old man's warning, he still chose to grit his teeth and persevere.
Finally, in an uncontrollable mood, Xie Wen staggered out of the house and headed towards the nearby bar.
He heard that drinking can relieve his sorrows, but now he urgently needs to numb himself and not let his emotions control himself anymore.
Otherwise, he would be afraid that he would really not be able to hold on.
Stumbling, amid the scolding of passers-by, Xie Wen came to a nearby bar.
After ordering several bottles of wine, Xie Wen suddenly drank a big mouthful in his mouth in the surprised eyes of others.
He had never drunk alcohol and vomited as soon as he took the first sip.
But he did not put down his wine glass and continued to pour it into his mouth, trying to relieve his despair in this rough way.
In the bar, the music was booming and the crowd was noisy.
But Xie Wen's heart was still full of loneliness.
He felt that although he was only a few steps away from the people around him, he was separated from a world.
They are in a closed world, and they are outside the world.
He vomited again and again in the surprised eyes of outsiders, but he still felt irresistible fear and despair.
The sadness in my heart was not diluted by wine, but became stronger.
This feeling tortured Xie Wen and made impulsive thoughts come to his mind again and again.
Why do you have to persist? Wouldn’t you be liberated if you die?
What is the meaning of my persistence?
Various emotions surged, Xie Wen kept struggling, trying to get rid of his emotions and control himself.
But in the end, when he thought of the girl, he finally collapsed.
The final thought is to die quietly in the room without disturbing anyone.
Thinking of this, Xie Wen could no longer hold on.
He wanted to stagger and stand up.
At this moment, a voice appeared in my ears.
"Can you sit beside you and have a drink?"
"I...I'm leaving!" Xie Wen replied at a loss.
"It's okay, have a drink, I'll treat you!" The voice of his speech came to his side and sat down.
"Waiter, come two glasses of juice!"
"Don't you... want to drink."
"It doesn't matter what you drink, you feel that you are not in good condition now."
"No... don't worry about me." Xie Wen, who was lonely inside, replied at a loss.
"Ask you a question." The voice continued.
When Xie Wen heard this, he did not refuse because he did not know how to refuse, but chose to remain silent.
The master of the voice continued to speak:
"If one day you wake up and find that decades have passed, you are already seventy or eighty years old, in your twilight years, you are sitting in an empty room, bloated and old, white hair, even less money or power, and you can't even take care of yourself, then someone is by your side telling you that it will make you open your eyes and return to your youth, and everything will start over again, are you willing?"
Hearing these words, Xie Wen was stunned.
Because of this story, the old man told him, it was a story about inspiration.
The protagonist in the story is because of his hardships in life, but he is mediocre and gives up on himself, and even thinks about leaving.
Until one day, he met an old man.
The old man told him this story and asked him, would you like to start over if you open your eyes?
The young man said without hesitation:
"If everything can start over, I'm willing."
At that moment, the old man asked him to close his eyes and then opened his eyes.
Yes, nothing has changed, but now he is still young.
Xie Wen, who already knew the end of the story, looked dim:
"Sorry, I know the end of this story, but I can't see clearly, and it's still dark when I open my eyes."
"How can you know if you don't try it? You can start over, keep the beauty in your heart, and abandon the darkness in your heart. Just as the old man in the story said, you are actually still young!"
Xie Wen opened his mouth and said nothing.
At this moment, he suddenly thought of his grandfather.
Like the strangers around you, whenever you fall into despair, you will always give yourself strength and cheer yourself up.
And he felt that the strangers around him knew him very well.
"I...!" Xie Wen wanted to say something, but opened his mouth, but he still couldn't say it in the end
At this time, the voice owner handed the juice delivered by the waiter to his hands:
"I'm leaving, try to open my eyes, and you will find that a new life has begun!"
"Wait..." Xie Wen mustered up the courage and called out to the stranger.
"What's wrong?"
"Thank you!"
"You're welcome, don't forget that the warm people will warm the world." As he spoke, the voice's master walked away.
Xie Wen was shocked when he heard the words his grandfather often spoke and said it from strangers.
After he left, Xie Wen was silent for a long time and finally drank the juice.
For some reason, he suddenly felt itchy and felt very uncomfortable.
So he tried to open his eyes.
At that moment, he suddenly realized that everything in front of him became so clear.
The waiter who was walking by was hurriedly, the crowd twisting on the dance floor, and the resident singer who was singing happily...
At this moment, the closed world seemed to open the door.
Let him blend in with another world.
While feeling incredible, Xie Wen quickly stood up and chased outside.
However, when he walked out of the bar, he was in a hurry and he could no longer find the stranger.
"Thanks!"
After stopping for a moment, Xie Wen burst into tears and murmured softly.
...
Not far away.
After looking at Xie Wen, who was gradually moving away, Tang Yu drank the juice in his glass and couldn't help but grin.
Chapter completed!