To be honest, Guo Peng felt quite embarrassed at this moment.

As a father, I can't even remember my son's age.

This... is indeed a bit too much.

It probably won't hurt too much, right?

Guo Peng looked at Guo Qiong's face and found that he had no strange changes. He thought for a moment, and felt that he would say something to restore the awkward atmosphere at the scene.

You can't just be embarrassed to the end, right?

"I think I'll celebrate you a few birthdays? Your birthday is April 18th, I remember correctly?"

Guo Peng looked at Guo Qiong with a smile on his face.

Guo Qiong's face remained unchanged and looked straight at the vast sea ahead.

"My son was born on March 18, the first year of Xingping, the former Han Dynasty. For twenty-four years, the father celebrated his son's birthday together, when his son was eighteen."

“……………………”

Guo Peng lowered his head and looked at the fine sand in front of him. His feelings were complicated and he didn't know how to speak for a moment.

Fortunately, Guo Qiong never seemed to expect Guo Peng to remember these things, and never had any expectations for him.

Not only can he not remember his son's age, but he can't even remember his birthday.

Indeed, for ten children, he never remembered each child's birthday one by one. Cao Lan was responsible for these things. Cao Lan was in charge of housework, and he did not care about it. At most, he stood up for Cao Lan from time to time, that's all.

He really pays little attention to children other than Guo Jin.

Guo Qiong seemed to know this clearly.

"My father is always busy with military and national affairs. Except for the elder brother, the other brothers and sisters rarely see their father. Everyone is used to it. The father is the emperor. The most important thing for the emperor is military and national affairs, not family affairs. Our affairs are family affairs, and it is not important, and there is no need to disturb my father."

After hearing Guo Qiong's words, Guo Peng pursed his lips and sighed.

"I know, what I say now is useless for you, and your brothers and sisters. Indeed, I am not a good father. I have ignored you too much. Arjun, I'm sorry to you."

Guo Qiong chuckled and shook his head.

"At least my father still cares about my elder brother. When my elder brother is cared for by my father, my brothers and sisters can also empathize with me. At least, my father is still my father."

Guo Peng was silent for a while.

He turned his head and looked at Guo Qiong.

"Because he is the crown prince, and I will inherit the throne in the future. No matter how busy I am, I will not ignore the education and attention of the crown prince. Similarly, as long as the crown prince can meet my wishes, it is enough, not because he is your elder brother, but because he is the crown prince."

Guo Qiong turned his head, looked directly at Guo Peng with no joy or sorrow on his face.

"In my father's eyes, there is only the Wei Kingdom and no Guo family, right?"

"yes."

Guo Peng does not deny: "My weight as an emperor is far more important than my weight as your father. Because I am the emperor and I have 80 million people, I am destined not to give you more care like a normal father, because I don't have the energy and time, so you must understand me."

Guo Qiong's eyes moved, sniffed, and turned his head.

"On March 18, 20th year of Yande, my tenth birthday, my mother told me that my father would come to celebrate me. I was very happy. I waited and waited. From the hour of You to the hour of Hai, my father did not come, and I didn't come all night, and the dishes on the table were cold.

I asked my mother, where is my father? Why didn’t I come? My mother touched my head and said that my father was discussing government affairs with the court officials overnight. The country was first built and everything was in ruins. There were still enemies in the south that had not been eliminated. My father was very busy and could not come to celebrate my birthday."

Guo Peng was speechless.

The stall in the second year of Yande was indeed quite busy.

He really didn't have much time to attack Liu Cong and Liu Zhang, who were busy with internal construction and power struggles.

but……

Guo Qiong didn't stop talking and continued to talk.

"Five days later, my father didn't come to my 10th birthday. I remember that my brother showed off to me, saying that my father liked him more and would definitely go to his birthday. As a result, he also waited from You to Hai. My father didn't come. When he arrived at Zi, he cried.

That day, he cried very fiercely. I originally wanted to mock him, but seeing that he cried so fiercely, I didn't continue to mock him. I think we are all the same, why do we mock each other? What's the point of mocking each other? Can we let our father celebrate our birthday?"

Guo Peng was still silent and speechless.

There was a feeling of guilt in my heart slowly spreading.

Guo Qiong then continued to talk.

"In May of the third year of Yande, Yingmei was seriously ill. Everyone went to see her. My brothers and sisters also went to see her. I remember that her face was very red and she was panting very quickly. Aunt Tian was so anxious that she burst into tears. Her mother scolded several doctors in the large clinic very fiercely.

In the end, Dr. Huada still cured Yingmei. Yingmei was lying in bed for three months. Her father only went to see her once. It was late at night. Yingmei didn’t know that it was my mother who told me later. Yingmei once told me that she missed her father, but she didn’t know where her father was.

The last time I met my father, my father promised her to celebrate her birthday, and he would take her with her to ride a horse and go to the wild barbecue. She didn't know when her father would take her there, and she asked me if I knew, of course I didn't know either."

Guo Peng turned his gaze to the other side, his breathing was a little heavy.

It’s not that he doesn’t want to explain, but he feels that there is no room for explanation.

Guo Qiong didn't seem to want to give Guo Peng a chance to explain. He even said everything he wanted to say, and said a lot in one breath.

"In July of the fourth year of Yande, Luo Mei was also very ill. In a month, her father had never visited her once. I asked Luo Mei if she missed her father. She said she wanted it. She said that her father would hold her and play with her every time she saw her, but why was her father not here when she was sick?"

"In the fifth year of Yande, I don't remember how many months it was. My sister was cold and fell ill in bed. Aunt Xiaoqiao cried and swollen. When I went to visit her, I heard Aunt Xiaoqiao cry and say to Aunt Ohashi, "Don't my father liked her sister very much?" She also said that she was the pearl in her palm, why didn't she even visit her once?"

"In the sixth year of Yande, my father was in northern expedition to Xianbei and was not in Luoyang for half a year. During this period, several concubines had been sick and my mother had also been sick. Hu's illness was particularly serious. People from the large clinic traveled to and from the palace every day for a month, and they were in a hurry.

At the most dangerous time, I eavesdropped on Dr. Hua and said that Hu is afraid that it will be bad. Let my mother prepare for it. It is best to tell my father that my mother strictly ordered Dr. Hua and I must cure Hu and not tell my father, because my father is in the northern expedition and cannot be distracted."

"In the eighth year of Yande, my father suddenly told us that we had decided to marry a few of our brothers and sisters. We didn't know what would happen, but the concubines still cried in private, saying that after the sisters got married, I don't know how many more times will be seen in the future."

"In the past ten years of Yande, my father focused on rebellion and did not come to the inner palace every day. At that time, I was sick for a month, and my mother held my hand beside my bed and cried. I had never seen my father, but I didn't expect my father to appear.

Because I know that my father is doing big things. Compared with my father's big things, I am sick only a very, very small thing, insignificant, and it is not worth distracting my father, and my father will not be distracted at all."

"Every time I see my father, I always have to be together for a long time before I can see my father again, so sometimes I can't even remember what my father looks like. Whether his beard grows long, I always ask my elder brother where his father's beard has grown to avoid remembering it wrong."

Guo Qiong said a lot and a lot in one breath, his voice was very stable and there was no emotional fluctuation.

But Guo Peng is becoming less and less afraid to look directly at Guo Qiong, and even feels that Guo Qiong's eyes look at him are a little dazzling.

Guo Qiong stared at Guo Peng.

"From childhood, we brothers and sisters are almost the same. We rarely see our father. We occasionally see our father at banquets, and we can't say a few words. Our father has never asked us anything about ourselves."

"We got good grades in school and ranked very high. We really wanted my father to know, but my father didn't seem to have time to praise us even if he said a word."

"Every time we celebrate our birthday, we really want to celebrate with our father and mother because when we go to other children's birthday parties, their parents are there, but after so many years, they only have one or two times."

"We have been told by our mothers and aunts since we were young that we should not think about everything being solved by our father, letting our father know that our father did great things and did great things in the previous dynasty. We have to solve our own problems and we cannot trouble our father."

"So I don't know when I...I was about ten years old, and I knew that no matter what happened, my father wouldn't care about me. It's natural for me to do well. What I did not do well was to be a traitor."

"I did a good job, no one would praise me. I did a bad job, but many people would criticize me. In fact, I really hope to hear my father criticize me, because it at least proves that my father cares about me and knows me."

"Why? It's obviously only the distance between the previous dynasty and the inner palace, and it doesn't take a few incense sticks to come over. Why can't we see my father even at all?"

Guo Qiong stared at Guo Peng without crying, but there was a choking feeling in his voice.

Guo Peng didn't dare to look at him directly, and felt more and more embarrassed and guilty, so he simply turned his face to the other side and refused to look at Guo Qiong.

But he didn't block his ears, so Guo Qiong's voice would still rush into his heart without any obstacles.

"Father, is it that difficult to talk to us and meet us?"

"Are you a waste of time to tell us what you want to do?"

"What military and national affairs can be made within one stick of incense? If not, why didn't my father use this incense stick to ask about our homework?"
Chapter completed!