Before I was thirty, I was unwilling to talk about family affairs. At that time, I had a traditional mentality and should not be made public. Later, another voice came to my mind, which was to face everything calmly.

Especially when I attended the self-help club where Uncle always mobilized, I saw those strange men telling real stories, and heard my friend Lin Shao telling his family, his love, his marriage in front of everyone. Maybe Lin Shao was right. Only by telling the most embarrassing and unwilling to recall can I truly be able to take it and let go.

Since I asked the fourth question, my mother has given me a little good look.

As for Master Shi Yongyuan, he is too busy doing business, eating, drinking, and playing cards. Generally, he has no mind to take care of me. Only when he loses playing cards will he come home to find me and lose his temper.

Because of this, I often pray that he wins every time.

Not long after, I witnessed my parents fighting for the first time.

It may be inaccurate to say that the fight was probably not accurate. In fact, an eight-month-old woman was carrying a kitchen knife and chasing a man who was suspected of cheating.

This incident caused my mother to get angry and the root cause of the disease.

This incident also attracted dissuasion from relatives of both parties, because they had a divorce, which was the first time I experienced them having a divorce.

I was very scared at that time, and I was afraid that no one would ask me for it after they left.

In the years that followed, after their 18th divorce, I suddenly changed my mind: Why not be able to divorce me?

As for the reason for their first divorce, it was a long story. At that stage, our family ran the first dance hall in the town. In that dance hall, there were a total of five ladies.

Of course, in that era, people did not call prostitutes a lady, but "cats" or "cats".

At that time, there was also a very popular anti-pornographic film called "Persian Cat". The so-called Persian Cat is the code name for a group of prostitutes.

In the Sichuan dialect at that time, people commonly called finding a lady: catching a cat.

In that era, every time Master Shi Yongyuan got drunk, he would like to open his voice to tell his glorious deeds back then: "I remember back then, when I was twelve years old, I picked up a kitchen knife and caught a cat at the age of thirteen..."

Because of this, a group of gangsters in the town admired him very much.

My mother suspected that during her pregnancy, Master Shi Yongyuan had an affair with the cat lady in the dance hall. The two escalated from quarrel to fighting, and then from fighting to divorce.

Under the dissuasion of relatives and friends of both parties, the marriage was not completed and the dance hall was transferred.

Without the dance hall, Master Shi Yongyuan opened another teahouse and devoted his limited youth to the infinite gambling career for many years.

In the 1980s, Master Shi Yongyuan did master some tricks in the world, and was skilled in gambling. He often won more and lost less when playing cards. In the 1990s, many gambling methods were different from those in the 1980s, and Master Shi Yongyuan gradually couldn't keep up with the times. Moreover, after he passed thirty and headed straight forty, his mind was getting less and less useful. It is said that he could count cards when he was in his twenties, but after he was thirty, he lost this ability.

In this way, the generation of gambling gods in the town changed from winning more than losing less than losing.

It just so happens that my mother is a very snobbish town woman. Usually when Master Shi Yongyuan wins money, she will not express her opinions. Once Master Shi Yongyuan loses money, she will have a big opinion, and the two often make trouble for it.

In 1994, the conflict between the two on gambling was irreconcilable. In order to make Master Shi Yongyuan quit gambling, they closed the teahouse after discussion. From then on, my mother opened a small restaurant, and Master Shi Yongyuan showed a strategic vision that amazed future time travelers. He started selling, and the thing he sold was called Sanzhu Oral Liquid.

In the next two years, our family was thriving, and it was moisturized everywhere and vertically.

In 1996, Master Shi Yongyuan was no longer satisfied with selling oral liquid. After figuring out the routine, he chose to rely on himself and jointly sell something called a swing machine with a group of people.

That kind of thing should be considered a product of the introductory stage of pyramid schemes in my country.

It took only half a year for Master Shi Yongyuan to succeed, and he successfully offended all his relatives and friends.

He summarized a successful marketing model: specializing in acquaintances.

Because of this, relatives and friends who have been fooled will never interact with our family, and relatives and friends who have not been fooled will also stay away from our family.

In my memory, since that year, even my uncle and aunt who often come to my house have never been to the house again. Occasionally, I met my parents on the street, and everyone didn't say hello to each other. The only thing that is gratifying is that once I met my uncle on the street, he told me to go to his house to play when I have time and don't tell my parents.

During that period, I still didn't hate Master Shi Yongyuan. I even thought he was great. He paid a lot and endured a lot for this family. Later I realized that I was too wishful thinking. 70% of the money he earned in the way that was pointed out by thousands of people was spent on the gambling table, 20% was spent on the banquet, and the last 10% was spent on the home...

Good fortune will never come alone.

When Master Shi Yongyuan was busy and coldly looking at the crowd, my mother was not idle either. She was never a good-for-nothing lamp, and she was unhappy if she didn't make any trouble.

She believed in religion, neither Christian nor Catholicism, but Li's religion.

Yes, my mother practiced wheel skills in that era.

Later, when Wheel Gong was suppressed nationwide, she almost faced jail.

She has become a little weird since then.

As for what kind of weirdness it is, I can't say.

During those years, there were also some very warm stories.

One day, Master Shi Yongyuan went to a parent-teacher meeting. That time I happened to get the first place in the exam. He showed off all the attention at the parent-teacher meeting. After coming back, he promised me: "If you still get the first place in the exam next time, I will quit drinking!"

So, I really got the first place in the exam.

That day he saw my transcript and said happily: "Go and get me some wine!"

I said, “Didn’t you say you’d like to quit drinking?”

He said: "What do you know? You got the first place in the exam, so of course I have to celebrate it."

In this way, he put a bottle of white wine in front of me.

Master Shi Yongyuan is a very emotional person, and he is easily moved. Once he watched a TV series, where a father quit smoking, drinking and gambling for his son. In the end, his son was admitted to college and lived a happy life. After watching this drama, Master Shi Yongyuan was very touched and promised me again: "If you get the first place in this year's final exam, I will definitely quit gambling!"

So, I got the first place in the exam again.

I still remember that after I got the transcript that day, I ran home happily.

As soon as he arrived at the door, he was about to go out, and I was so angry that I told him: "Dad, I got the first place in the exam!"

He didn't react and said casually: "Wait, wait until I come back after playing cards."

Under my surprise gaze, he went out to play cards in a daze.

That was the first time I really realized that he never took me seriously.

After 1997, not only did Hong Kong have a difficult life, but my family has also had a difficult life.

Master Shi Yongyuan has become notorious in the town, and it is becoming increasingly difficult to make money.

We moved again, left town A, where we had lived for many years, and moved to the richer town B.

During that period, my mother was basically indifferent. She was addicted to her beliefs. Apart from washing clothes and cooking, she devoted all her time to her beliefs, and closed the door to practice whenever she had time. In order to reflect her preference, she often asked Xiaohai to help her protect the Dharma when she practiced, and never let me get close.

She also promised Xiaohai: "When my mother has mastered her, I will accept you as her apprentice."

At that time, I was particularly jealous of Xiaohai.

I learned to smoke and drink since 1996, maybe because I was too unbalanced.

Xiaohai is a very powerful person. In my childhood, he has always been my goal to catch up with. I usually only get the first place in the class, but he often gets the first place in the whole grade. He is the real hope of his parents, and I am nothing.

Later I learned that Xiaohai had a stronger place, and he had a special purpose for Master Shi Yongxin. During the summer vacation in 1997, Master Shi Yongxin took his two sons to visit my second aunt. Because of the swing machine incident, the second aunt did not want to pay attention to Master Shi Yongxin, but in the end he couldn't bear to turn us two children away.

Everyone knows that my second aunt loves Xiaohai the most, and she always thinks that Xiaohai is the hope of the entire family.

My grandfather and landlord were born, and had two wives, ten children, seven men and three women. Among my grandfather and grandchildren, there was never a person who entered the top 20 in the class in the exam. I, including me, had never experienced the feeling of being among the top before the third grade of elementary school. But Xiaohai was different. He has been the first since the first grade of elementary school and has been a top student for more than ten years since then.

Because of this, Xiaohai is regarded as the hope of this family and is simply the banner figure of our third generation.

In that era, my uncles, uncles, aunts and aunts always had this catchphrase when educating their children: "Look at how great Xiaohai is" or another sentence: "If you have half of Xiaohai, I will die with peace of mind!"

Every time he visits a relative, Xiaohai can receive all kinds of gifts and lots of pocket money.

I had a memory of my childhood. That year, my brothers went to pay New Year's greetings to my fourth uncle. My fourth uncle gave Xiaohai a red envelope, and my fourth aunt specially prepared a Saint Seiya toy for him. I was overjoyed at the time and thought that even if my gift was not as good as Xiaohai, it would be almost as good as it was.

As a result, I forgot for a long time, and my fourth uncle and aunt had no intention of giving me anything.

I couldn't help asking, "Second uncle, where is me?"

The fourth uncle said impatiently: "Son of Turtle, let's talk about it when you get the first place in the exam."

From then on, I never entered my fourth uncle's house again.

Back to the topic, we continue to talk about our experience of going to our second aunt's house.

When I was picking up marbles outside the door that day, I heard Master Shi Yongyuan in the house say, "Second sister, even if you don't believe me, you should believe Xiaohai. To be honest, the family can no longer be broken, and Xiaohai's tuition fees are a problem. For Xiaohai's sake, you can help me once. I won't do a swing machine. When I go back, I will open a store and do a small business honestly."

Xiaohai is very charming, and his second aunt lent 20,000 yuan to Master Shi Yongyuan.

However, Master Shi Yongyuan did not open a store. He took us to the county town, calling it a few days of playing. Xiaohai and I spent two days playing with my fifth uncle in the county town. On the third day, I saw Master Shi Yongyuan's unique face. Whenever he lost money, he must have such a look.

That night, he ignored my existence and ran to the house to discuss with Xiaohai, asking Xiaohai to insist on going to Beijing to attend the summer camp immediately. The next day, he used this excuse to lobby for the fifth uncle, and borrowed 10,000 from his fifth uncle on the grounds that Xiaohai was going to Beijing to attend the national elementary school summer camp.

It was only then that I realized that Xiaohai was actually his tool for cheating money.

But I don’t even have the qualification to become a tool for cheating money.

I am so useless, no wonder I have no status in this family.

In the autumn of 1997, in the season when everything withered, my life showed signs of recovery.

That year, an old friend of Master Shi Yongyuan returned from a distance and came to visit my house.

That uncle is very special, I always call him Uncle Hongtashan.

Uncle Hongtashan’s family is well-off and has been smoking Hongtashan since the early 1990s. You should know that an ordinary worker’s salary in that era was only 200 yuan, and smoking such cigarettes that cost 7 yuan per pack was so luxurious that they could not be extravagant. Every time Uncle Hongtashan came to my teahouse to play cards, he would give me 10 yuan and asked me to buy cigarettes for him. He never gave me the remaining 3 yuan directly.

I especially like Uncle Hongtashan and I wish I could buy ten packs of cigarettes for him every day.

Uncle Hongtashan also likes me very much. Once during dinner, Master Shi Yongyuan deliberately told Xiaohai various advantages, trying to divert his attention from Uncle Hongtashan like Xiaohai, but Uncle Hongtashan said with alcohol: "Xiaohai is so slutty, I don't like..."

Because of this sentence, I like Uncle Hongtashan more.

How bad is Xiaohaiyin? I just need to give an example.
To be continued...