You gradually become unkempt, Zhang Sirui.

Your face is covered with beards and your hair looks like a savage. You are negligent in taking care of it.

Your biggest daily expectation is the storage of wine in the warehouse and a cigarette before midnight.

The day the female spy left, the last nine boxes of cigarettes, one hundred and eighty ones were left.

You have calculated that one can be drawn every day for half a year. When the ninth one is drawn, it will be the day when the female spy agrees to come back.

But the female spy did not come back, and there were only twenty-eight cigarettes left.

After the late rice is harvested, your life becomes more and more lazy. After the church tied the wooden door of the sheep pen on Sunday, you no longer lock the door and let it move freely in the village on Sunday. You will only take it to the pasture to see the sheep every morning, and then go home to sleep on your own.

You don't wash often, which makes you feel tooth pain quickly. When you chew something, your gums become soft and sometimes you feel pain in the back of the teeth. At first you feel that you have wisdom teeth, but later you realize that it is periodontitis.

You start taking antibiotics and give yourself periodontal treatment. This makes you lose appetite because antibiotics contain cephalosporins and you can't drink alcohol after taking it. And long, long-lasting toothaches last longer than any pain. If you want to give your pain at this moment, you will get a full score of 10 points, your answer will probably be "π" - there is no pain, but it will never end.

You try to divert your attention in other ways and relieve the long-lasting pain in life. Since the Mid-Autumn Festival, the female spy has not come back, and every day after that, you have vaguely felt this pain. This mentally endless "toothache" precedes the physical toothache.

When you think of what you said to female spies before, you often go to the astronomical observatory to learn the knowledge she left behind. But learning astronomy is a systematic process. Now you don’t even know whether the earth is really in the solar system. Without important references, there is no possibility of learning astronomy at all. To give an appropriate example, in a modern society without the so-called “spiritual energy of heaven and earth”, it is impossible to learn the internal energy of the novel.

You began to understand the meaning of the female spy shaking her head at that time. You alone cannot learn a lot of knowledge by yourself. Having a teacher is not just about allowing students to avoid detours, but also twice the result with half the effort. "Teaching" is a multi-faceted feedback process, which cannot be accomplished simply by observing, listening, and reading. It took you a long time and a lot of money to realize this.

You begin to feel regret. Intermittent regret. The most important thing is to regret the day when the female spy left. You didn't talk to her because you were a little angry. If you could know in advance that it was your last conversation, you would be gentler to her and gentler. Or, you should be more rude, lose your temper at her, tie her up, and prevent her from leaving, blow up the astronomical observation station, and let her spend the last half year with you with peace of mind...

But these things cannot be turned back. You think about all this all day and night, and gradually begin to wonder why you are alive. Your body is haggard, growing, metabolized, producing dandruff, aging, and your hair is growing, but your spirit is trapped in the past. This makes you often feel a sense of separation in the middle of the night. Sometimes in the middle of alcohol-free night, toothache makes you unable to sleep, and you will be unable to restrain your ambitions of death. You will think: Robinson has family members on the other side of the world, and black Fridays that you spend day and night together. What do you have? You briefly have a life with a woman who calls herself rihanna    rose. You have not held hands, hugged, and kissed. Is that love? In short, it is not family affection, it is mutual support, calm love. What about other people now? Maybe they are dead.

But you are afraid that she will not die. You are afraid that she will really come back and will never see you again.

You are waiting for the cigarette at midnight every night. You think that at least you have to wait until the last cigarette is finished before considering whether to die. If you can survive, just spend the last period of time with Shirley on Sunday and die quietly. She did not abide by your agreement. At least one person between you must be trustworthy.

So you start to figure it out one night. You no longer turn your biological clocks upside down day and night. You reorganize your instruments regularly, keep them clean, and do all kinds of things during the day. The most common thing you do is to patrol the mountain with a hunting rifle. You are not for hunting. The animals on the mountain were brought back from the zoo by female spies. You regard them as your own children or companions. You do not interfere in the hunting of herbivores by carnivores, but you will use your own barren knowledge to do some veterinary work and help injured and sick animals with simple treatment.

The original intention of doing these is to make yourself spend more energy during the day, get tired, and sleep better at night. But you quickly realize that this is a virtuous cycle. You find that the female spy put the animals in the mountains, which was not what she said, "just throw them away" and let them die. You see many artificial trellis in the mountains, which were specially built by female spys for some animals to rest. Moreover, the distribution of all animals on the mountains is traceable. The female spy spent a lot of effort to plan the places where these animals live, turning this place into a second zoo to ensure that no species will become extinct.

When you find this, you say to yourself:

"Who are you?"

You probably won't get an answer again. But in this mountain, there is a trace of love for the world hidden by the female spy. Taking care of the animals on the mountain is actually a new connection with her on another level.

You can face your next life with a little optimistic attitude. In mid-December, due to the drastic changes in the earth's climate, Zhentang, which was originally at a low latitude, had unprecedented heavy snowfall, and the temperature dropped sharply to several degrees below zero. You have a premonition that some tropical animals on the mountain could not survive this time, but there was no way to go up the mountain, but instead cooked fire in the village to read books and study how to make wine.

A thin layer of snow covers this quiet small oriental village. When Christmas Eve is approaching, you put the chicken that has been marinated for a day in advance into the oven, go to the forest, cut down a coniferous tree sapling, and intend to use it as a Christmas tree. This is the last day when the countdown for the female spy is over. You are still following the agreement between you and carefully preparing for this last holiday.

You went to the warehouse to find the remaining lights from the last Easter, wrapped them onto the tree, and then carried the tree more than one person to the female agent's house and put it next to the fireplace. Then, you returned to your room and brought a gift box that had been packaged a few days ago and placed it under the tree. Looking at the colorful Christmas tree, you suddenly took a deep breath, and the addiction to cigarettes surged into your mouth, and decided to smoke the last cigarette a few hours in advance.

You walked under the sofa, took out the box of Marlboro, opened it, and then was stunned. The cigarette was rolled down. You opened the pillow with some anxiety and touched the crack in the sofa, but you didn't feel anything. Suddenly, you sniffed and turned your head. At that moment, your eyes were filled with astonishment.

"Didn't you say this is my protection fee? Why do you keep stealing me to smoke? A stinky man."

A woman with long red hair, a one-sided black eye mask, a pair of tight women's jeans, and her upper body is clearly yours, a large size loose shirt, leaning against the edge of the door frame.
Chapter completed!