"I know you must be thinking, but because I am bigger than you, but you have to know that in a few years, the current physical and age gap will immediately become meaningless. What is important is inner growth!"

"Grow me up to someone who can understand the pain of others!"

A trace of light seemed to flash deep in my brother's eyes.

What a look? It's obvious that I hit someone else, why do I have such sad eyes...

"Ha?! I'm different from my elder brother!"

"That's not the case. You will always be my younger brother, and this will never change in your life!"

Tell...Why do you need such gentle eyes...

"Go to die! Die, die, die! Brother, let's see if I kill you... Woo--, what are you doing!"

I punched him, but with just a moment, I fell to the ground again.

"Listen, what is important is inner growth, remember it in my heart!"

"Tsk! You hypocrite! It hurts so much... you beat me up so hard!"

"Zhou Qi! Is it okay... Is it over?" Just as I was accusing, my sister ran over and stopped her brother. She squatted down, looked at me, and gently touched my head.

"Don't worry about me!" I struggled to avoid her touch and turned my head aside.

But she still put her hand on my head despite my wishes and said, "Even if you can't understand it now... you will definitely understand it when you become an adult."

"You are the ones who can't understand me, sister!" I lowered my head stubbornly, looked at the ground, and muttered in a low voice: "Why... Why am I the youngest! I really want my sister and brother. I will definitely understand them more and I will definitely love them well..."

"Brother and I... both like you the most!" My sister was still comforting me, but when I heard her words, I felt it was ridiculous.

"We understand... You are actually a gentle child... Come and make a tomb for this child, okay?" My sister pointed to the corpse on the ground, pulled me into my eyes, and said slowly: "How is it?"

"Huh...that kind of thing...that's fine if you throw it into the trash bin!"

Sister: "Zhou Qi! If you keep going like this, you will be alone for the rest of your life?"

She grabbed my shoulder and preached to me with a pleading expression. I was already very angry and suddenly bumped away my sister's body.

Me: "Like me? Don't pretend to understand me very much. You lie! No one will believe me, and I will not lose to anyone... The guy who lies to me will definitely not forgive me!"

absolute...

absolute!!!

......

......

Hum...yes...it started from then on...

What humans really think...yes, what to do to see their real reactions is what we began to think from then on.

For me who cannot understand the thoughts of people around me, there is no one who can understand me!

After growing up... I learned the art of dealing with the world, and spent every day inconspicuously in the future, often playing the role of "this self."

He laughed like he was interested in boring topics, pretended to be sympathetic, and made a hurt expression.

The classmates who could not detect the hypocrisy mask and came over to talk to each other with a smile - all of them were lies.

I obviously didn't see the essence, and I pretended to understand others based on the superficial phenomena.

Those who are deceived by my simple acting skills and have a silly mind, these existences that should be despised!

My brother and the others are the same. They have lied to me and are unforgivable!

It was not until I fully grew up, until the end of the world broke out, and until I came here that I felt like I wanted to give it a try.

Try ways that can really understand others and methods that can make me understand...

I looked at those people... I was laughing inside, but I didn't expect that I always wanted to kill you!

People who stand on the brink of death are very honest - just like animals, everyone has a "real conversation" with me from the front.

In addition to some of them... there are also guys who suppress the whine and beg for mercy and then die.

For example...Lin Wanyue and Wang Peng.

I was chasing her, and she was running wildly in front of me. I was like a cheetah chassis chasing a little wild boar, slowly following her.

When I learned that she wanted to rely on the curse to let all of us be buried with us, I stabbed her eleven times.

In the end... she didn't make any wail.

What happened at that time really made me feel very dissatisfied.

After coming to this space, I was a little looking forward to whether I could change something.

But even after killing, no feelings similar to humans emerged in my heart.

My elder brother’s preaching also appears in my ears from time to time. I remember what it is: life is equal, remember it!

Is life equal? ​​Ahh, it is indeed equal.

When killed, they are equal, whether it is humans, animals or ants!

But even if you feel the same when you kill it... no matter what, the sin of murder can no longer be escaped.

Haha... in the doomsday, what is killing? Even if I don’t do it this time, I will do it one day, just get used to it in advance.

Although I won't regret it, the future I want no longer exists.

What...

Guan Hong'er appeared in front of me, squatting on the ground, with awkward face, and holding up her neck and holding back the swelling.

That's right... it's just this feeling, I'm so pitiful to the other person.

Huhuhuhu...hahahaha! The dedicated sister...yes, this is it!

An existence that is even weaker than myself must be protected! That’s it! This is what I want!

If you are with this little girl who can make me feel pity, will you still have a future?

Yes, if you can feel mercy, then the sin will have the possibility of forgiveness!

Just live with this little girl!

I'll...

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----Guan Honger's Perspective----

The continuous shouting made my throat only make a dry sound.

"Haa...ha...ah...ah...ah..."

The inside of the throat was extremely painful...it was like a burning sensation like being cut directly by a blade.

Zhou Qi: "Haa...hahahaha..."

He was about to kill me, but for some reason he stopped moving like this after raising the knife.

Sometimes he breathed in a mess, sometimes he trembled slightly, sometimes he gritted his teeth and kept repeating.

Zhou Qi: "Ha...ha..."

It's so tormenting... My psychological defense line that I just calmly died has been completely shattered by his behavior.

I don’t know if he did it on purpose and wanted to torture me in this way.

I don't want to die... I want to meet you again... Captain, Xiaowan, Xiaoxue... and Big Fan.

I took a big breath and used all my strength to make a sound.

"Ah...ah...help..."

But... this way, I can't make words, and it only makes me feel anxious.

"!"

He suddenly regained consciousness and suddenly pushed the knife to my cheek.

"babble--!"

"No matter how much you shout for help, no one will come!" He looked down at me with an empty gaze.

"Who...who... knows!...hh..."

"It's so noisy!" My mouth and nose were covered by his palms, and I couldn't breathe anymore.

"Wu Uh...ah, wu...ah...ah!"

I struggled with pain, while trying to bite off his flesh without thinking.

"Um!" Zhou Qi screamed, and his smell of blood spread in my mouth.

What I didn't expect was...I could actually hurt him...it seemed that his body was not as powerful as his strength.

Although it is a warm rust-smelling liquid, it moistens the thirsty throat.

"You're scared, my teammates, they'll come!"
To be continued...