Chapter 1121 I am Chen Weiming
My surname is Chen, and my name is Weiming, and Chen Weiming.
For a person, a name is one of the most important things, because it not only distinguishes a code name from different people, but also represents the name's expectation for the future of the named person.
Those who can name themselves by their elders are happy.
I don’t have a suitable elder around me, so I took my name myself.
Not named, not dead...
This name is not only because I don’t know what name to use, but also because I am confused about my future destiny.
As a child who is trained as a killer, every moment around him is death.
But I will not feel sad about the death of those people, not because the weak among the killers is the creed of sin, but because I have no feelings for them at all, and even one day in the future, we will still be enemies.
If the enemy dies more, you will be safer.
But I feel confused because their today may be my tomorrow, and I don’t know where the way out is.
Before I woke up, I experienced a period of time when I couldn’t say the darkest life, but it was definitely a very dark one.
When I finally got the recognition of this killer organization again, I gave myself a second name: Walker.
If a name can represent a life, that day, I started my second life because I was no longer completely confused, but had the first goal: to get out of darkness.
Walker, a traveler walking in the dark world.
But what I didn't expect was that the name came true and declared my life.
A traveler, a traveler, is just a passing person after all. He should not appear here and cannot stay here for a long time.
When I finally wanted to leave the killer organization, fate opened another door for me, a door that could be described as a joke.
You are a very important person, and there are many waiting for you, including the ancestor Fuxi, the Supreme Master, and Nuwa...
Under normal circumstances, if you hear such words, you will definitely sneer and not take them seriously. But such scenes and various information are telling yourself that all this is true.
I was about to start a new life, but someone told me that you must walk on the path of those people, resist, go against the will of heaven, and walk the unique path in the world...or it should be said to be a single-plank bridge.
And you can't go, because we have all written your name on it, in the same camp. Even if you choose to give up, it's useless. When those people are dealt with, the last villain will rather kill a thousand people by mistake than let one go to deal with you.
So, I walked on that road, struggling powerlessly, but actually because of my inner touch.
The touching was not about how important this matter was and how great the sacrifice was, but about the first time in my life, I felt that so many people would care about themselves and continue to do so, just to wait for themselves and buy time for themselves.
I followed the footsteps of my predecessors and embarked on a journey of retrograde.
I let go of the killer's indifference and selfishness and began to seek the heroic spirit of the whole world.
I began to demand that I be better and better in terms of force and intelligence, so that I could not let the sacrifices of my predecessors be in vain.
I tried to make myself better, but the reality was cruel.
Maybe some things are born not what you are good at. Sometimes things that you think are good will turn out to be messy.
One day, I was forced by my best friend to go against the road to attack immortals, break through the Heavenly Gate, and break out of the bound world.
That day, I seemed to have gained greater freedom, but I didn't know that I had entered another bigger trap.
That day, I met the woman who was destined to be entangled with me for a lifetime: Ou Yuzhi.
She is very beautiful, gentle and virtuous, and is a very good girl, but at that time I didn't love her, or in other words, I didn't love her for a long time.
When all the things caused her to start to become different to me, and there was a spark, and before I started to fall in love with her, I left.
I thought this would be a breeze blowing through without any trace, but I never thought that it had left behind a root and a deep root of love.
In the days ahead, without her being by my side, I lived a life that most monks lived, and experienced experiences that most monks had never experienced.
Especially, when my identity, which was also the real reason why my predecessors waited for me, I suddenly panicked.
Pangu... I was actually him in my previous life. He was the first extreme monk from ancient times to the present. God knows what this represents.
I was not excited about it, but panicked. I don’t know if I can not lose the glory and glory of this name, nor do I know if I can take on the so-called great task, but because after that day, I saw another message from all the insiders.
They were waiting for the origin of this life to come back, but they were not waiting for Chen Weiming, but Chen Pan.
They were all looking forward to me integrating Chen Pan's memory, saying that my current situation was like an amnesia, and integrating Chen Pan's memory was like remembering what happened before.
But I don’t think so. I have complete memories from childhood, independent personality, and different personalities from different ages.
If I am salt water, then Chen Pan is sugar water. When we merge, there are only three results: I have overwhelmed him, he has overwhelmed me, and completely merged to become a new personality influenced by two personalities and personalities.
With Pangu's ability, experience and broad thoughts, the greatest possibility is that a drop of salt water and a lake of sugar water merged, leaving no trace of my submersion.
Although there are precedents for the successful fusion of the Nether Sword, there are precedents for the failure of Emperor Xuanyuan, and there are also lessons that Mo Wen has become the Lord of Forgotten.
I dare not, and I don’t even want to integrate, even if I am forced into the Jedi again and again, I am persisting.
I am me, a firework of different colors.
Even if that great man is Pangu, I have no obligation to sacrifice myself for him... Even he himself said so, so I don’t think this is selfish, it is just human instinct and nature.
This is my persistence in my heart, but I often feel ashamed because I know that if I persist in this way, the biggest possibility is that it will cause many people's regrets, but I still have to persist, this is the little stubbornness in my heart.
But today, I suddenly felt proud of this persistence, and it was this persistence that allowed things to successfully get out of that trap.
Ou Yuzhi died and disappeared completely. Before she disappeared, I finally realized how deep she loved me and how strong I loved her.
No matter what the reason or the motivation, the result is one.
It was my choice that made her despair and then she died of her heart.
Her heart died and took my heart away.
If I could do it again, I would definitely choose another result, even if it was not the result I wanted. It doesn’t matter whether it was right or wrong, I just want to be selfish for myself.
Love is always selfish.
Unfortunately, there is no chance to start over, because as the Lord of Desire said, when I enter the Heavenly Palace of Judgment, the ending is already destined.
He wanted to use my heart to break my Tao to complete his final plan, but unfortunately, he knew that he was actually gambled, and this time, he was destined to not win.
Because it was Chen Weiming who was trapped, not Chen Pan.
My life is a life of fighting against fate, from the name of the name, to the walker, and to the present.
What is fighting against is not only the fate imposed on the great way of heaven and earth, but also the fate imposed on the comrades in Chen Pan.
I wanted to resist, but found that I could not wave my arm.
I wanted to escape, but found that I could not bear the consequences of escaping.
Ou Yuzhi said that the whole world was waiting for that body to wake up, but it was not her who was waiting for it, but Ji Xuefu.
She was wrong because at least she was waiting for her.
I thought that the whole world was waiting for Chen Pan, not Chen Weiming, but this was also wrong. At least, Ou Yuzhi was waiting for Chen Weiming.
Now that Ou Yuzhi is gone, this has become a fact. The whole world is waiting for Chen Pan, and Chen Weiming's existence is meaningless anymore.
Chen Pan is the most dazzling sun star in the world, and Chen Weiming is just a meteor.
But even if it is just a flash of meteor, I will leave the most beautiful star marks.
I don't know what the future will be, but at this moment, I will make the most important choice in my life.
Everything will return to the track that should be, and Chen Pan is Chen Pan.
And I, that is me.
Walker, passerby.
Chapter completed!