[150] Determined not to be a scumbag
There was no elevator to go downstairs from the waiting room to the platform. There was also a bag tied to Fang Chang'an's suitcase. In order to avoid damage to the suitcase, Fang Chang'an carefully carried it down, which was very difficult.
Fang Changming rushed over and handed the food to his sister. He came to help the elder brother himself. The two brothers took half of it and calmly came over to help. It took a lot of effort to drag the suitcase down.
It took a lot of time to delay, but fortunately they came quickly, and everyone had to drag their luggage downstairs, which had already delayed their time. Most of the seats were still empty when they got on the bus.
Fang Chang'an and Congyan couldn't lift the big suitcase, so Fang Chang'an sought an uncle at the seat next to him to help him, put the suitcase on the luggage rack, and put both bags on them, and put the food and the schoolbag he carried directly below to facilitate the collection of things.
This is an old-fashioned green train, with three-seaters on one side and two-seaters on the other side. They are both opposite each other. There is a small table in the middle to store garbage. Because it is the starting station, the carriage has just been cleaned and it is relatively clean.
Fang Chang'an and the other three seats were on the double seat side, with four seats in each table, and they occupied three. The remaining one was a student-like girl, who was sixteen or seventeen years old, looked like a high school student, came up with two elders, put things under the seat and listened to music with headphones.
Fang Changming and Fang Yanran both looked at the headphone cable she hung curiously. Fang Changan naturally did not have such a bad prospect. He stood in three seats first, took out the "Night Ship" from his schoolbag and stood beside him to watch it, passing the time.
When the train moved slowly, Fang Changming and Fang Yanran became surprised again and lay down on the window and looked out. Fang Changan looked at his two younger brothers and sisters who had never seen the market before, and sighed in his heart: "Actually, I also feel a little novel. After all, I haven't taken the hard seat of the train for a long time... I don't miss it at all!"
In addition to poor space and comfort, station tickets are also a very important reason for hard seats. There are not many empty seats at Yunlong Station. After two stops, people started to buy station tickets. By the evening, people were everywhere in the carriage aisle.
Fang Yanran and Fang Changming had no initial freshness, so they asked Fang Chang'an to tell stories. Fang Chang'an told them the contents of "The Night Ship" to them, and at the same time they casually spread some allusions they knew. At first, two little guys listened, but later many people around them followed them, and some knowledgeable adults followed them from time to time. Without a few words, no one remembered what they discussed at the beginning, and they talked randomly.
It was hot outside, and the train became cold because the air conditioner was relatively low. Fortunately, they were prepared for the house Chang'an and put on coats. Most of the experienced passengers were like this, and some didn't bring them, so they had to go next to each other.
In the evening, Fang Chang'an and the others made three buckets of instant noodles. Fang Chang'an and his younger sister ate a bucket, took some baked buns, soaked them in them with ham sausage.
After eating, the next time is even more difficult. On the one hand, the fatigue of the body being cramped in the narrow space, and on the other hand, it is still extremely boring, but there is no way, so I can only wait for time little by little.
Fang Chang'an missed the sleeper berth very much, so he decided to try to persuade his mother to buy a sleeper berth when he came back, but he also knew that the hope was very slim, so he just treated it as looking for plums to quench his thirst.
After ten o'clock, the carriage slowly calmed down. Fang Chang'an sat down in the evening for a while. Seeing that his mother was a little sleepy, she asked her to sit and sleep first, wake up and then change herself, and stand to move her muscles.
The lights were turned off in the carriage, leaving only the dim lights on the top of the carriage. Most passengers were already asleep, with strange postures. Some leaned against the back of the chair, some leaned against the window, some pillowed on the thighs of fellow travelers, some sat in the aisle, and some even went into the seats and lie down to sleep.
Some passengers who are worried about sleeping or can’t sleep, some change to the seats and those who don’t have seats, some go to the connection of the carriage to smoke or chat in a low voice. There seems to be someone making a phone call next door, and the noise is very loud.
Fang Chang'an moved his muscles and stood in the aisle and looked at the lights occasionally passing by in the dark night outside the window. He used this rare boring time to make an unplanned review of his experience after rebirth. His thoughts gradually spread out halfway.
Perhaps because she accidentally met a suspected "eighty" during the day, what Fang Chang'an thought about was more about feelings.
His previous life experience was quite strange. Before high school, he was like a pool of water. In addition to a few cowardly crushes, he didn’t even have much contact with girls. After entering college, he suddenly started to wander among the flowers without a teacher. If you count it carefully, you actually failed many times, but you were diligent in the net and you naturally gained a lot.
Later, when he worked and started a business, he even felt that this method wasting time, and spending money became the simplest and most efficient way. Of course, he did not do illegal and criminal things. He was just a love-loving marriage. You are happy and I feel comfortable. I bought you a bag as a gift afterwards. However, I am busy, so it is easier to discount directly, so I won’t be able to pick and choose.
There have been some relatively long-term relationships that can even be called love to the outside world, but in fact there has not been much change. In this kind of "love" relationship, he prefers more realistic or materialistic girls, because he believes more in this kind of loyalty that is similar to contract than love.
It’s not that I don’t believe in love, but that I can’t believe that he will be with me.
This is the real reason why he never dared to give his feelings. He always felt that he would be punished. His extremely insecure heart made him instinctively afraid of true love and marriage. Many years before he was reborn, he was doing psychological construction for himself. In fact, it was good to live alone and live a lonely life. Or wait for his career to be more successful, marry a young and beautiful girl who likes to live a stable life, form a family without love, and run this family together. He only needs to firmly control the finances, which is equivalent to controlling love.
If there is an accident, then change it, after all, you won’t have to worry about not being able to find the next one.
There are naturally regrets, but there is no way to look back. He can choose a prodigal son to turn back, conceal his past experiences, and find a girl who is really moved to fall in love seriously, but cannot deceive himself. He is still afraid of the possible retribution, and he firmly believes that it will come sooner or later.
In this case, if you fall in love, Fang Changan is afraid that before the things you worry about come, he will first collapse.
However, God gave him a mercy and gave him a chance to come back. Fang Changan didn't know whether he was a scumbag or not. This was not an excuse for himself, but rather he didn't know the exact definition of a scumbag. If he was playing with feelings, he felt that he shouldn't be.
What he was sure of was that in terms of emotional qualifications, he was much shorter than ordinary people, so he did not dare to expect these things.
Fang Changan didn't know what other scumbags thought, but he really regretted it and wanted to look back, similar to "I had no choice before, but now I want to be a good person."
Now Tian Tian really gave him a chance to come back. This is an incredibly lucky gift. Sometimes he can't help but wonder whether the previous life he remembered was a real experience, or was the twelve-year-old Fang Chang'an had a dream before the junior high school starts, and had experienced the next ten years in the dream? Just like Zhuang Zhou Mengdie.
But no matter what, it is a gift.
Fang Chang'an was not ready to go the wrong path of his previous life. His personal experience made him very sure that scumbags had no future, and being down-to-earth and dedicated to falling in love is the right way.
As for Wang Ke and Shen Mo...
"I just said to be down-to-earth and wholehearted, but I didn't say it's all the way. After talking about breaking up and talking about the next one, is it always normal, right?"
"Who should I talk to first?"
"How to decide after the talk?"
"What if she cries?"
Fang Changan was bored and entangled for a while, and boredly took out a 50-cent copper coin.
"Shen Mo on the front, Wang Ke on the back, because Shen Mo came first... It seems that it wasn't right. After rebirth, it seems that Wang Ke came first... But the first person I had crush on in my previous life was Shen Mo..."
Fang Changan was struggling for a while and finally decided to come by age, Wang Ke, Wang Ke, and Shen Mo, the opposite.
After making a decision, he gently threw the coin, then gently reached out to catch it, spread his palms and saw that the national emblem shone brightly under the light.
"Is this a positive or a negative?"
Fang Changan looked over again and saw that the other side was the number, and he was finally sure that what he threw was the opposite side, that is... Shen Moxian?
He did not want to toss his coin to be left to fate. He was too irresponsible to himself, Wang Ke and Shen Mo. He just wanted to verify what he had heard in his previous life: When you see the result, you will understand your choice.
Fang Changan now understands a little because he really wants to throw it away again.
"So I chose Wang Ke?"
He muttered secretly and threw the coin up again. This time he was holding it and watching it. God still favored him very much. This time he gave him the front and finally chose Wang Ke.
"But what's going on?"
The coin was thrown silently again and then fell again.
opposite.
Abandon again and fall again.
opposite.
Throw up again, fall down again.
opposite.
"Hey, you're still competing with me, right?"
Fang Chang'an threw it away again, and finally saw the front and then threw it again.
just
opposite
opposite
just
just
just
...
Fang Chang'an threw it for a long time but couldn't find the answer in his heart. He couldn't catch the coin and lost it. It was 50 cents. He quickly lay on the ground and looked for it. He reached his hand under the seat, and even put it on the uncle's butt on the seat, and took out the 50 cents.
Wipe the coins with the corner of the clothes and put them back in your pocket. This time, Fang Chang'an finally found the answer.
I can't bear to let go of any one!
"What should I do?"
Fang Changan continued to stare at the night outside the window boredly, and he really came up with an idea: "Since I can break up and talk, then it is reasonable for me to break up and get back together again, right?"
"Junior high school is too young, Wang Ke is older than Shen Mo, so let's talk to Wang Ke in high school, break up after the college entrance examination, talk to Shen Mo in college... No, there are too few things that can be done in high school, and you will arrive in college for one year in three years..."
"After the freshman, break up with Shen Mo, then get back with Wang Ke, after... ah, after the sophomore, break up with Wang Ke, get back with Shen Mo..."
"Is it too long for a year? What if they were hooked up by someone else in the middle?"
"Why do you rotate one semester? It doesn't seem to be very safe, then... one month?"
"Or might as well forget about odd and even days... Uh, this shouldn't be considered a scumbag, right?"
"It shouldn't be counted... If possible, I'm willing to go through the breakup and reconciliation process every time to ensure there is no legal and moral problem... I don't mind the trouble..."
"They won't beat me to death, are they?"
"Well... it's better than being exhausted... Forget it, I'd rather be exhausted..."
...
Fang Changan was bored and fell asleep. During this period, he held the seat and took a nap. At about five o'clock, he woke up calmly and quickly asked him to go to his seat to sleep. Fang Changan went to the toilet first to avoid having to queue up the next morning.
He stayed up for nearly all night, and was sleepy and tired, and didn't bother to dislike the hard seat. He quickly fell asleep against the back of the chair. When he woke up the next day, Fang Yanran wanted to go out before he woke him up.
It was already dawn outside the window, and Fang Changming was fine, and he was sleeping so hard that he felt uncomfortable all over. He moved his muscles and bones in the aisle, letting his mother sleep in his seat, and letting him continue to sleep calmly. Fang Changming felt uncomfortable all over and refused to sleep again. After calmly eating some snacks, he leaned against the window to make up for his sleep.
After passing Hangzhou in the morning, there were fewer people in the car and fewer people got on the car. Fang Changming and Fang Yanran became energetic again and looked at the surrounding scenery, especially the mountains and distant mountains that often flashed outside the window, which made the two little guys who grew up on the plains particularly excited.
"Brother, how long will it take to arrive?"
"Mom, can I get there in two hours?"
"It's almost time to reach Lishui, will you arrive at the next stop?"
After passing Jinhua, the carriage was mostly empty. Fang Chang'an found a seat with no one and lay there to make up for the sleep. Fang Changming and Fang Yanran were both expectant and excited and bored. Even though they knew that their elder brother had not had enough sleep, they still couldn't help but call him every time they felt that they were about to arrive at the station. Fang Chang'an was so angry that he wanted to throw them out of the window.
The train often had to give way to other vehicles along the way, but it was not surprisingly late. It didn't arrive until 2 pm. When it slowed down, even Calanglan couldn't help but pack up his luggage first. Then after waiting for nearly half an hour, the train finally stopped, and the train trip, which lasted more than twenty hours for the mother and son, came to an end.
When she stepped on the ground, Fang Chang'an deeply felt the power and stability contained in the words of down-to-earth. This feeling was so good.
Chapter completed!