Chapter 37 Admiration
In the dark room, a girl named Rin Tosaka finally woke up from her coma and found herself tied to a chair.
When she recalled the sudden appearance of the Servant that was extremely similar to Shirou when she lost consciousness before, she realized that she had fallen into the hands of her sister Sakura.
I don't know how the archer is. When I saw him the last time, the servant was fighting fiercely with the fighter.
It's really a useless service that can't even protect your master.
Although there are many objective reasons, although Archer has been trying to protect her, she is very unhappy with this servant who has betrayed her.
Damn, why do you still think of that useless guy now? Can you still imagine that he has the ability to save him?
Trying to restrain his emotions, Rin carefully observed the surrounding environment.
The rope was tied very tightly, all the gems were confiscated, and the magic power was suppressed. For a teenage magician girl, she had cut off all her means of getting out of trouble.
Or try smashing the chair.
The girl shook the chair hard, trying to shake it loose, but she fell heavily to the ground.
"Damn it-"
As the girl's painful moans, the door was pushed open by Sakura, and the avenger who followed her in turned on the lights in the room.
"Sister, we're meeting again."
Looking at Rin who was lying on the ground, a hint of panic, a hint of guilt, and a hint of pride flashed across Sakura's face. She signaled Avenger to help Rin up.
"Maki Sakura, you still participated in this Holy Grail War."
Rin's cold voice stiffened Sakura's expression, and the victor's sense of superiority disappeared from her face.
"Sister, I'm sorry, I need the Holy Grail."
"What's the point of doing this time? Not long ago, you were thinking about getting away with your beloved senior, and that guy ran away."
The red girl glanced at Avenger with disdain, which made Ying's expression feel a little more aggrieved.
"Sister, do you want to have another fight with me?"
"I'm just a loser, asking you about your wishes before being disposed of."
Rin wanted to shrugge freely, but the rope that was tied too tightly made her unable to even do this move.
"Sister, my senior needs the Holy Grail, and his life needs the Holy Grail to complete it."
“…”
The red girl stared at her sister silently, making Sakura feel a little difficult.
"The senior's situation is a bit complicated now. He will be unable to maintain his body due to the incompleteness of his life at any time. He will even be unable to restrain himself from attacking and attacking...er in order to make up for the desire to complete his life."
The girl has realized the difference between Avenger and Shirou Emiya, but it is even harder to call another person Emiya Shirou, and she has to use Er as a substitute for her name.
"So, you gave up your original idea and participated in the Holy Grail War in order to live with this magical life for a long time, and first attacked your sister."
"Shut up! You are not allowed to call my senior like this again--!"
The purple girl suddenly burst out and grabbed Rin's shoulders, and anger invaded Rin's skin like a substance.
As the heir to the Tosaka family, in front of his sister's anger, Tosaka Rin was not shaken at all, and her fearless eyes were confronted with Sakura.
"Do you can't tell the difference between truth and falsehood, right and wrong? My sister."
Rin's questioning voice was angry, merciful, contempt, and the proud look of raising his head and never surrendering came into his sister's eyes.
This is the appearance of a sister who inherited the Tosaka surname she lost. She has been standing in front of her for ten years. Her tall figure covers her like a heavy sky, making Sakura feel her insignificant, her own nothingness, and even her own despair that her existence has been completely denied.
Why, you, who are in the same blood as me, can be so happy?
Why, you were not the one who was chosen back then?
You are so proud, always high above, but now you can only look up stubbornly in front of me.
When I saw the almighty sister, the powerful sister was helplessly bound in front of her, the question that I had never dared to say suddenly emerged again, and the anger that sprouted in the long-lasting despair flowed happily in front of the sister who had become a defeated dog.
She used to be so scared, afraid of her terrible appearance of being dominated by jealousy, but now she realizes that long-term persistence is so meaningless.
When you are powerless, no matter how much restraint or indulge, it will only be painful. When you win, you will have the power to choose freely and the power to arbitrarily control the loser.
As a poor sister of the loser, no matter how angry or righteous she is, she can only do this, just like herself who can only hide in a dark corner for many years and cry helplessly.
It was pleasant to vent her resentment before, but today she felt even more pleasant as a winner, and the feeling of intense happiness passing through her soul made her addicted.
So, she found that her anger had disappeared, and Sakura retracted her hands that grabbed her sister's shoulders, kept her elegant standing proudly, and laughed happily.
"It's my sister who doesn't understand anything, right? You've lost."
"Do you think it's good now? Keep indulging yourself and hurting others. You already know that Avenger is attacking humans, and now he is getting worse when he has a body. You have to protect him. When you can't look back, how should you face your beloved senior?"
"So sister doesn't know anything. You always define me based on your own ideas, and you don't even understand why I like seniors."
Sakura smiled and stood tall in front of Rin with her arms in her arms. The cold starlight outside the window shone in, turning her sister's snow-white skin into a weird blue-white one.
At this time, the distance between the sisters was as far as one meter was as far as it could never be crossed.
"For a long time, I have been looking forward to seniors and like seniors. What is the purpose of? Are seniors' handsomeness, kindness, and persistence? Maybe I have always thought so."
"But after avenger came to me, I realized the real senior. The pain from the senior is so closely linked to my heart. I also understood that I don't just want to have seniors, but I want to be seniors more than to express my love to seniors and then have seniors."
"Do you think your current behavior can be compared with Shirou, who dreams of becoming a partner of justice?"
Sakura's words made Rin laugh sarcastically, but her sister's expression remained calm.
"Of course, I have always wanted to be a senior, and I longed to be a senior, so that I can survive the pain of this year."
In the dark night, Ying's eyes shone with light. She was so eager and longing for her senior. The more she understood her feelings, the more she could not restrain herself from loving her senior.
"I imagined, longing to be like a senior, persistently jumping over the heights that I know I can't jump, and persistently endure the suffering that I know I can't endure."
"I want to be like a senior, no longer have family, and even if I am alone, I can survive."
"I think I don't need friends like my senior. Even if there are people who can become friends like Senior Liu Dong, and girls who can long for sisters, they can be free from worries and live without any friends."
"I want to be like a senior, without needing relatives. Even if I and Sister Fujimura are by my side, I am persistent in living alone, fighting alone, and not considering anyone's life."
The purple girl with strange flames burning her eyes bent down and approached the tied Rin, conveying her sincere voice deeper into Rin's heart.
"Do you understand? I love seniors deeply because I want to be as selfish as seniors and as persistent as seniors. I want to live without anyone, I want to live without anyone, I want to live without caring about anyone. - I want, you all disappear!"
The cold words echoed in Rin's ears. The bound girl was first incredible, then became unbelievable, and finally shook her seat that trapped her in anger.
"Shut up, shut up! It's all nonsense! It's all sophistry! Tell me the truth, Sakura doesn't think so -!!!"
Sakura stood up with satisfaction and pulled her long hair behind her ears charmingly. She smiled and watched her sister's struggle, her voice as sweet as honey.
"Because this world is a hell, a hell that even such a kind senior cannot escape, and a hell of such a proud sister is full of pain, and a hell that makes me suffer so much that I have no power to choose. Now, I am no longer lonely. I have a senior who is connected to my soul, so let us live with each other in this hell, no matter how many sins we commit, we will live together."
Sakura stared at her beloved senior affectionately, holding hands and forgetting her sister aside. It was not until she left with her lover that Sakura turned around and remembered something.
"Sister, I forgot to tell you something. Archer has disappeared. You don't have to worry about the Holy Grail anymore. Please wait here safely until the war is over."
As my sister howled in pain, the door of the room was closed, leaving Rin in the dark room.
Sakura held his lover's hand and came to the living room. In the living room, Masahide Kimura, who heard Rin's crying sound, waved to Sakura happily.
"Haha, it seems Sakura's interview was very successful. Are you really not going to give Rin to me?"
The weak girl who has always been able to let mermaid meat is at a loss in the sudden change of status. In front of this man who needs to be vigilant no matter how she looks, she forcibly maintains a cold expression.
"This is my sister, the one brought back by Avenger, and I only have the right to deal with Rin Tosaka."
"Oh, I'm really stubborn. Although I'm a poor woman who has lost her Servant, Sakura has ignored my fighter's efforts. It's really heartless."
Kimura pretended to patted fighter on the shoulder next to him. After Sakura left, he asked his servant again.
"Did you really kill the archer? Fighter."
"Of course, since I recovered from the last injury, I have become unprecedentedly powerful. I smashed that guy with a light punch."
Fighter said, patting his chest.
"I always feel that it's a bit fake to die so easily..."
"Then do you want to hear how I fought with Archer? No matter what, he is also a Servant. After the fight, we still have a lot to talk about."
Fighter began to explain the battle to his master enthusiastically. Masahide Kimura hurriedly waved his hand to let fighter leave, and then asked himself with a pout.
"When did this guy start to become so annoying?"
Forget it, let’s play with Jianxin who messed up the matter first.
Kimura whistled happily and walked out of the hidden stronghold of the Matsuki family.
Although after erasing his own feelings, he gradually couldn't tell the difference between pain and happiness, some of the changes he paid attention to did touch his heart.
The inferior and weak heart gradually distorted, and the intense emotions he no longer has in pain. The world no longer repeats itself in ordinary times, and everything changes according to one's own will. These touches to the heart must be happiness and joy.
Kimura thought with satisfaction, and was happy that the distance to the Holy Grail was getting closer and closer.
Chapter completed!