Qin Yinong woke up once in the middle of the night, and the wine she drank in the evening came back from her stomach. She stumbled into the bathroom, hugged the toilet and vomited in the dark.

Tang Ruoyao's eyes hopped, he immediately turned over and looked towards the door.

The sound insulation conditions of this house are very good. If it weren't for the big noise on the opposite side, it would be basically impossible to hear it. But Tang Ruoyao didn't know what was going on. There was always a kind of intuition guiding her, just like that night, Qin Yinong accidentally knocked over the water cup when she had a nightmare, and she woke up immediately and rushed outside the door.

The same is true today. There was an indescribable feeling spreading in the heart. She was strangled and thrust. She raised her hand and pressed her heart, frowned slightly, stared at the door in the darkness, and her ears stood up to listen to the movements next door.

Qin Yinong.

Tang Ruoyao lifted the quilt off the bed, put on a coat, opened the door and walked out.

She paused, and there was a faint light coming out of the crack in Qin Yinong's room door. Her ears were pressed on, and there was the sound of flushing the toilet, and the sound of the woman hiding in it.

Tang Ruoyao looked up at the not-so-thick door, and his knuckles hanging beside him bent. He stood for a long time without the courage to ring.

She wanted to be with Qin Yinong for the rest of her life and was sure that she could bring her happiness. But now the result was not yet right, and things went against her wishes. Qin Yinong would rather be drunk than face her.

Is her firm pursuit right or wrong?

In love, people often feel that they are not good enough to do anything for each other and are not worthy of each other. Tang Ruoyao once thought so at home, but her greatest confidence is that she is sure that Qin Yinong likes her, and that love is not distinguished, just like a person knows whether he is good or not. There is no right or not, only whether he is willing or not and whether he is worth it.

Tang Ruoyao just pressed the negative thought, and the new problem caught her off guard. What if she could give was something that Qin Yinong didn't need at all? In other words, she was unwilling, not just talking about something or pretending, but really unwilling.

Tang Ruoyao could ignore Qin Yinong's cold words and could get out of the harm again and again and again, but she could not sit idly by and watch Qin Yinong suffer from grievances, especially because this grievance was brought by her.

Give up.

A voice said in my mind.

Tang Ruoyao lowered his eyes, clenched his fists, and tears rolled in his eyes.

Give up, do you have the heart to be sad?

The voice said again, with a gentle sigh.

Tang Ruoyao gritted his teeth, sucked his nose, raised his hand to wipe the tears from his face, but the more he wiped it, it couldn't be wiped clean.

A low choking sound appeared in her throat. Tang Ruoyao hurriedly covered her mouth with one hand and quickly walked back to the room. She pressed her back against the door panel, and she slowly slid down like she was exhausted. She bit her arms hard, and her crying sounded suppressed.

Qin Yinan became much more enlightened after vomiting. The scenes in the yard that were deliberately forgotten in the afternoon came out of her mind without saying anything and were screened back and forth. Tang Ruoyao loved her deeply, and Qin Yinong did not doubt that she would do anything she wanted her to do without hesitation. She loved her passionately, sincerely, dedicatedly, and selflessly, and put her first in everything, but because of this, Qin Yinong was even more afraid to face her.

She was destined to be unable to respond to this relationship. Every promise from Tang Ruoyao and every sincerity he brought out seemed to press a straw called guilt on Qin Yinong's back, which became heavier and heavier, and eventually crushed her.

She can give her anything, as long as she has it, including her body and soul, her future will not belong to her. This is the idea she has always insisted on and has not yet shaken.

Qin Yinong stood up with the toilet, washed her face with a cold water, and supported her hands on the edge of the sink. She looked at the woman with a numb expression in the mirror. Her stagnant eyes turned slowly, lowered her head and noticed her sling nightgown on her body, with her eyes confused.

She would not be completely lost when drinking. She remembered the scene before she was drunk clearly. Guan Han would never change her clothes, and the only person who could do this would be Tang Ruoyao.

Qin Yinong suddenly frowned fiercely.

Then wouldn’t she see herself like this? What would she think?

Qin Yinong's heart kept sinking.

Will she think it is her fault for this?

Qin Yinong's heart thumped, rushed out, and suddenly opened the door. The corridor was empty, and the window that was not tightly closed at the end was blowing in a breeze with drizzle. Qin Yimian shivered while condensing his shoulders.

She stood in front of Tang Ruoyao's door, pursed her thin lips slightly, raised her hand, and after a long time, she gently knocked.

Dong--

The sound of a door separated by the door sounded in his ears. Tang Ruoyao raised his red eyes and listened carefully, thinking that there was an hallucination.

Dong--

Another sound.

Qin Yidan's eyelids drooped, his lips tightly pursed, and he waited quietly for a few seconds without responding. She turned around and went back, but heard a low and hoarse voice through the door panel: "Who?"

Qin Yinong opened her mouth but did not make any sound. She had to clear her throat before she successfully spit out a single byte: "I."

Tang Ruoyao's back was tightly pressed against the door panel, and almost trembled. She bit the tiger's mouth hard, and Fang pressed the tremolo in his words back and said calmly: "I'm asleep, is there anything wrong with Teacher Qin?"

Qin Yinong was silent for a long time, facing the closed door, and asked, "... Have you changed my clothes?"

"Guan Han asked me to help."

"I'll thank you." After a pause, Qin Yinong added, "Something happened at home, I was in a bad mood, and I was drunk in a bad mood."

“…I don’t have to thank you for your help.”

The voice coming from inside was polite and alienated. Qin Yinong answered dryly, "Then you keep sleeping, good night."

"Yeah, good night."

The footsteps were getting farther and farther away, followed by the sound of the door next door being brought.

Tang Ruoyao loosened his teeth and bit his bleeding lower lip, sat back on the ground, wrapping his hands around his knees.

Why is it so coincidental that something happened at home as soon as she finished saying that to her, and she drank her sorrows. Tang Ruoyao didn't believe a word for such a crappy excuse. She came over to explain in the middle of the night, just because she didn't want her to blame herself, which further proved that this matter was caused by her.

She raised her face and smiled bitterly, unable to shed tears. If her love was really a burden to Qin Yinong...

***

During the days when Tang Ruoyao took leave, Xin Qian, the "left-behind child", lived alone in the villa, as happy as a mouse in a rice jar. She woke up and ate, and continued to sleep when she was tired of playing, living a happy life of day and night. On the day when Tang Ruoyao came back, she slept for an afternoon, ate a bowl of noodles cooked by Tang Ruoyao in the evening, and fell asleep early with the idea of ​​going to work the next day, causing her to wake up earlier, and she was not sleepy at all when she was supposed to sleep late at night.

The sound insulation setting on the first floor is not as good as the second floor. Xin Qian can hear any movement in the living room. She was lying on the bed and suddenly felt the air was cold and sneaky footsteps came from the living room, and it didn't stop for a while.

She was barefoot on the ground, holding a slipper in her hand, quietly pulled a gap in the door, and looked out cautiously.

A tall and gentle figure stood in front of the refrigerator, very familiar. After the man turned around, Xin Qian looked even more familiar. She put down her slippers, found another one to wear, and walked out.

"Tang Tang, what are you doing?" She screamed when she approached, "Your eyes!"

Tang Ruoyao held two red rabbit eyes and held two ice packs in his hand. It was too late to hide, so he greeted calmly: "You just got up, give me a cold compress."

Xin Qian hurriedly took it over, pressed her to sit on the sofa, and gently gave her a cold compress while asking, "What's going on?"

The coldness was soaked in his eyelids. Tang Ruoyao hissed softly, resisting the urge to dodge, and evasively said: "I'm reading the script and I'm in the play for a while."

"No matter how dedicated you are, you don't have to do this. Director Han will definitely scold you when he sees it tomorrow." Xin Qian said, without any doubt about her statement.

"I know, so I'm so cold compress, trying to get rid of tomorrow morning." Tang Ruoyao asked her with her eyes closed, "Do you think it's serious?" She didn't cry for long, because her skin was white and tender, and it became obvious when she cried.

"It's okay." Xin Qian observed carefully, "It should be fine after a night's sleep."

Tang Ruoyao breathed a sigh of relief.

Xin Qian threw the used ice pack into the trash can, clapped her hands, and said, "Okay, you should go to bed quickly. If you don't sleep well at night, you will be swollen. Then the swelling will not only be the eyes."

Tang Ruoyao smiled and said, "Good night."

"Good night." Xin Qian reminded, "Don't read the script anymore, I won't get up tomorrow."

Tang Ruoyao responded with a smile.

He fell asleep with difficulty and was woken up by the alarm clock in the morning. Tang Ruoyao opened his eyes, raised his finger and pressed his sore temple. He immediately went into the bathroom and looked at his eyes in the mirror. He had no problems except for his pale face and a little mentally ill.

Young people have a strong foundation and fast self-repair ability. Tang Ruoyao brushes his teeth and washes, puts on light makeup, puts on lipstick, has red lips and white teeth, and looks radiant, and can't see the negligent haggardness.

After she finished packing up, she habitually opened the door and left a gap so that she could hear the movements on the other side. As soon as she finished doing this, she was stunned. Tang Ruoyao stood there in a daze for a while, with long eyelashes hanging down and opened the door and went out.

It was quite strange to see her going downstairs alone, and looked behind her: "Where is Teacher Qin?"

Tang Ruoyao looked at her calmly without answering.

Xin Qian was stubborn and could still see her eyes, so she immediately consciously stopped asking.

***

Qin Yinong is not as good as Tang Ruoyao's physical functions. She has been spoiled by high-quality sleep these days. Last night, she suddenly had a hangover and insomnia. Her mind seemed to be chiseling in the deepest part. The pain made her eyes burst into tears, and her body shaking and she was almost unable to stand firmly.

Guan Han held her arm in time and whispered: "Miss Yao has already gone downstairs first."

What she saw in the corridor happened to catch the other person's back.

Qin Yinong pinched the fingertips between his eyebrows and paused for a long time.

Guan Han reported in a low voice: "You were drunk last night, so I asked her to change your pajamas."

"I know." Qin Yinong said in a hoarse voice.

Guan Han looked at her extremely abnormal face and suddenly regretted whether she made a wrong decision last night. If Tang Ruoyao didn't let Tang Ruoyao see Qin Yinan drunk, would they both stay the same?

"Sister Qin, I..." Guan Han's chin stretched out, and he tightly pursed his lips. There was a rare expression on his face, and he wanted to speak but stopped.

Qin Yinong saw through what she thought and said, "It has nothing to do with you." This is a matter between them, and they will face it sooner or later.

She pulled her arm out of Guan Han's hand and staggered into the bathroom.

Xin Qian answered a call and said to Tang Ruoyao: "The crew's car is here." Looking at Tang Ruoyao with a blank expression, her voice unconsciously lowered, "Are we leaving now?"

Tang Ruoyao said: "If you don't leave, Teacher Qin will wait."

Xin Qian's eyes showed a trace of confusion.

Tang Ruoyao's emotional ups and downs in the crew are basically related to Qin Yinong. If she smiles, it means that she has developed well with Qin Yinong. If she is cold, it means that she has a quarrel. Now she is obviously in a quarrel. Why are she still waiting for her?

Tang Ruoyao accidentally answered her doubts, looked down at the notice on her phone today, and looked up from time to time in the direction of the stairs.

One light and one heavy, two footsteps alternately, stepping on the wooden stairs.
To be continued...