It was rainy, no, it should be a rainy season.

Every day when I get up, I step on some cold floors barefoot, half open my eyes, open the light blue and beige curtains, look outside the glass door, and then look at the sky outside the glass window. Is it gray?

What I want in my heart is a gray area that cannot be seen from afar...

In my impression, gray is rainy season!

The weather is still a little cool, and the air is a little damp. It is a redundant luxury for me at this time!

Counting the steps, he appeared on the top floor like a walking corpse, raised his head and looked at the sky that was not bright enough, and he actually felt very dazzling. The helpless smile was also a kind of ridicule, mocking himself for being afraid of the rays of light.

Looking at the gray sky with expectations, thinking about when they would fall on my hair, my palms stretched out, and then wet the gray tiles under my feet. Finally, I could make an excuse.

Rain, have you heard what I said in my heart? That is why you gathered all your friends as I wish, jumping naughtyly from the invisible clouds to the world, and it continues to come, day by day.

You not only wet the ground, but also my dry heart.

The room was dark, and I didn’t have to run to a dusty place to practice driving, I didn’t have to stand like a fool in the cold wind, and I didn’t have to do things I didn’t like. Write an essay, draw a picture casually, and lie lazily on the bed while listening to my favorite songs.

I don’t want to think about anything, and I don’t have to do anything. Because the rain outside is getting heavier, it seems like a rain can erase all my dislike. Moreover, I can be a lazy cat at home openly!

In the rainy season, I was like a little duck walking out of a storybook. It couldn't swim, but it was because of the sudden wind outside, a storm, and even when the sky was clear, I also made an excuse: the sky finally cleared up, so I should have a good time to play! I missed my learning skills, and in the end it could only walk with a croaking outer character.

Even if I make excuses, I am not as calm as the little duck.

Every time I open my eyes, the gray I see inexplicably makes me feel at ease. However, after all, I blame myself and start to hate myself. Why do I reject one thing so much? Why can't I be happy to do something that makes others happy even if I don't like it?

The sky finally cleared up. Not only did I not even feel like playing, but the long rainy season made me feel dazed, but all my contradictions were contained in it.

Now I know that I did something I didn’t like, and it was done well, but it was actually not bad!

Because I always knew that no one could stop me from what I wanted to do, but I was really sorry for what I had no intention of doing! But I made an exception. I went to learn to have a driver's license just for my mother's smile.

Later, I thought about it, am I too easily led by other people's emotions? Is it okay to just do what I want to do? Why do you have to be someone for the sake of other people? If I am really such a person, I will have some failure!

My self-consciousness is too strong, but I have become a coward. I am looking for a high-sounding excuse for what I don’t want to do. It’s better to move forward bravely!

If I had let go of my strong consciousness at the beginning and kindly accepted something that was beneficial to me and my family was happy with me, I would not have been in a dim and dark that week!
Chapter completed!